our life.read it.

months back. right....

2009-10-08T12:22:00.002+08:00

yea..
im a faggot..
i ain't a man to admit whats right in my heart..
all this while..

ok. here goes.
after it all ends, u turn to some i barely knew.
if u want my attantion, den u got it.
listen,if u think ive got all it ova u.. den ure wrong.!

im once a chef, ppl come to me to buy food.
and if i cook fer them,they didn't finish it,
what does it mean ila? and if they are full, why come queing fer my food?
u were once with me,u were gd.
after i left u,u turned wild??!
why?
what does it mean?
i didn't taught u well? why turned wild only when 'us' is ova?
why not b4 its ova?

ila, ure a diamond,dun be a stone.

it can be an excuse fer other to read.
but u...
u noe me, im a perfectionist.
if ure left breast is swollen, i'll bite ur right breast too.
im a coward now ila.
i run away frm u.
to find someone less trouble.
read back all the past post.
u'll noe wad i mean.

my last question.
u said u kept all my/our things.
while i dump away all your/our things.
ther was something i kept all this while..
its ur weak heart. did u keep my heart well?
i hope u did/do.
someway,somehow...
im still loving . i do.

...

u.. ..

CLOSING DOWN

2009-03-01T21:22:00.004+08:00

Hey People, Im Closing Down This Blog.
Its Over, N Its The End. =(

Before I Do So, Some Things I Wana Share With You Guys.

All The Msgs From Him That Made Me Smile All Day Long:

I promise i wont leave u. i promise i'll marry u. den i will. one werd. Yes or No. that werd frm u determine whether we'll be bck together or not. one werd. that's it.

Aww. itu sweet bangat si. aku cintakan kamu!

Hehe. Btw ayg, u look pretty today. :D

Awwwww. Sob3. Dats sweet. well, heres mine. Happy 5th monthsary beloved. i hope u maafkn smue salah i. i love u bby. jgn tglkn i ok? muackz!

Asl bbyku yg tersyg, yg paling ku cintai di dlm dunia dan akhirat ini?

I kan u nye supaman. khekhe.

Ayg, tmr our anniversary kan. i tak tau ape nak kasi u. infact, i tkde benda nk kasi u. i malu takde benda nk kasi u. i takde duit utk spend on u. i sory. i really am.

I rurve u. Its bcoz u rurve u! And no one else. I rurve u!

Ayg. I rindu u. Bsok hug i lame2 k?

Ayg. i da smpip tau. u jage diri u baek2 pls. i da bes je keje, i txt u k. i tk sabar bsok i bleh spend time ngn u. Ayg. i rurve u.

Ayg. i syg u. u jgn ade laki laen okay? pls?

I rindu as much as u rindu i. Tpi...... Haix. I tk tau lah. Cyg, i maseh sygkn u seyy. Nape u kate i da tak syg u seyy? i dun noe everytime kte gado, ur past haunts me. i asyik imagine u klua ngn laki laen, noty2 ngn laki laen, ___ ngn laki laen. i nanak ckp ni smue psl i tkt nanti u ckp i tak trime __________. i sygkn u. i nak kahwin ngn u, naek pelamin ngn u, nanak tglkn u. tpi asyik gado over stupid matters. abeh i..... haix. i penat nak gado. i nak settle down.

That previous msg was indeed a blank msg. bt i did kissed on that blank msg. so that my kiss wud rch to u. :")

Ayg. I sorie. btol. i tak make effort to jumpe u. wen u really miss me, wen ure in need of me. i havent been a gd bf lately. im sorie. i really am. imy, as much s u miss me. tpi i tak tau y ive been very tired n lazy lately. ily syg. very much. i do. believe me pls.

i. i love you. very much.

hehe. u pick up frm me kann? u ade noty tak dis few days?

i cuma minum bnyk je skrg. Hmm. U ade menggatal tak?

As much s u miss me, i miss u too. Dun rpl. Lve u. Mwuahx. Firay.

Gdnyte. Slip tite n swit drmz. I love u. Mwuahx. I ninpi u okay. U tkmo noty ok. I assume ure t hm ok. Imysm. Tk cr princess. Jgn rply tau.

Ok syg. U rest tau. Dngr ck pi k. Nanti sat, kite hv the whole nite to ourselves. Ily ayg. Mwuahx. Tk cr.

Ah2.:( i nga pout.

I nak tok ngan u nyari.

I da alek. Nak tdo ni. U slip well k princess. I love u. Gd nyte. Slip tite n swit drmz. I do love u. Mwuahx.

Da lame i tk nmpk u. N bile i nmpk u, u look so pretty, so swit, so cute. I love u darling. Pape txt k. Mwuahx.

I jus rch hm. Tadi batt low. Den i cannot rply. Sory dear. Hapi 6th monthsary. I love u. I do. :”(

B4 i meet u, i jus wana say some things. I may be treating u cold nowadays. Bt dat doesn’t mean im giving up on loving u. I didn’t. Bt u. Haix. U dam akin laen. Honestly speaking, u ade contact other guys other den me tak? Hmm. I dun noe why insecurities taking my mind nowadays. I dun noe. Haix.

Ok. I trust u.

I love u even more darling. N u noe its true.

Hahak! I lup u darling. Jgn gi kat laki tu plak.

I syg u sorg jek syg. Mwuahx!

Ayg. I rindu u.

I nid u. :(

Baek skali!! I syg u lah! Kite tgk preview dier ok? So, u 1st, b4 fam. :)

I love u more den u do love me. :”( sory.

Hug!

Ure my heart. Ure my soul. Always my beautiful. :”)

Ok. Im yours!

Ayg! Bby! Cyg! Princess! Syg! Boobies! I love you! I miss u!

I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u. I love u.
I really do.

Cn ayg. Anything fer u ok? I love u too cyg.. mwuahx! N syg, dun leave me tau... :/ ily!

Ayg. I baru alek. Bleh kejot i kol 8 bsok? I kene kemas umah. Den go werk. Pls. Gdnyte. Ily. Mwuuaaaaaaahxxxxxxx!

Ayg! I da bleh type ngn btol! Hehe. Thx fer the casing ayg!

Yea. I may be a lil sick, n tired. Bt uve charged up my body, heart, soul n mind wif ur love. Thank u syg.

Syg. In life, things dun always turn right. No one u can trust. Not even me. Dat sumone can make u hepi. Dat sumone can make u cry too. Stay hapi syg. Coz im here.

Ayg. I jus rch hm. Hmm. Bsok klau u bngn cpt. Kol i kol 1030 bleh? Kejot i? Jadi i bleh dtg cpt? K ayg? I love u my heart. I miss u my soul. Mwuahx to u my beautiful. :)

:”( i love u too. Im sory. If i did anything to hurt u today. U slip k. Im slipping soon. Ily. Mwuahx. :”(

Haha. Ok. Gdnyte. Slip tite n swit drmz ily. N stitch too. Mwuahx.

Promise i’ll try my best. Now, u slip k. I love u. Mwuahx.

I find the whole WERLD. Those who beat u up, i’ll kill them slowly. Using bare hands n not weapon.

Hehe. Ur msg made me smile lah syg. Kite nie smue dam cm zac efron ngn gabriella. Skrg da hsm senior yr ayg. I hope thangs wont go wrong. I love u bby. Mwuahx! Btw, tk g subwaysmue dam cm zac efron ngn gabriella. Skrg da hsm senior yr ayg. I hope thangs wont go wrong. I love u bby. Mwuahx! Btw, tk g subway?

Yay! Ayg da smpi!

I lovw u too ayg. Wad hurt me most is wen u enter the bus and ignore me jus now. Haix. Jus so u noe i didn’t ferget u, i bought u a box of chocs. Temptations of eating the chocs is ther. Bt stil, i wan u to hv it. Its bcoz... i rurve u.

I sory ok.

I rurve u too baby.

Dun werry ayg. I noe my stand. I love u. And only u.

Klau u syg i gile babi nye, dngr ck pi n gi td. Bcoz, i rurve u!

Aiyo. I jumpe u, i kiss smpi naek k. I nak u rest lagy k syg. Anything txt k.

U shud noe i miss u badly. N u shud also noe im hurt by ur werds. I nid tyme to heal. Dats why i didn’t msg u much. Guess now im abit fine. Coz i force myself to. Dun wana ruin my 7 monthsary wif u. Hapi 7 monthsary dearest. I love u. Mwuahx. Nytez.

U come sch k. I miss u. I wana see u. :”)

I hv always sorieven u. :(

I kua ngn is, ngan syazzi, n shah. I maseh pat umah. Nanti i da klua n jumpe diorg, i kol u k darling? Its ok to haf insecurities. I have it too. Syg u!

Mata i mmg sexy pe. :p

Nak takraw ayg. Pls!

U tkde pat sini jage i. Hehe. I loveu syg!

AYG!!! ILOVEYOU!!!

hahaha. I da kaya kite maen2 bnyk2 k2. I klau kaye gile babi, i beli machine dier, letak pat umah u k.

Ayg. I love u very much. I wont go to other gals as long as we’re attch. Tak semestinye i senyumt pa pmpuan, pass brng pat adik angkat i,i akan gi pat dorg. I make sure thers a distance between me n them. No English, no u i, no love or miss msgs ok. I love u!.

Haha. Miss u too. Anywae, i jus abes. Lmbt kan?

Haha! Gd one syg. Ily! Mwuahx!

Cyg pat mane?

Gdnyte, slip tite n swit drmz bby. I love u. Mwuahx. Btw, kat playground i. Swing goyang, tpi tkde org ade dua swing, 1 je yg goyang. Nak ckp angin bkan seyy. Tkt!

Haha. I miss u olready is supposed to be my line!

Alalala. Sory lah. Gdnyte bby. Slip tite n swit drmz. Ily! Many2! Mwuahx!

Ayg!! No!! i love u seyy!! Tk cukup ke?!?!? Nanak kill urself!!

Nanak ayg. :(

Ayg. I da ale. Gdnyte, slip tite n swit drms. Ily. Very, wary, scarry, strawberry, marry much. Mwuahx!

Ya allah, lindunglah kekasih ku dari segala iblis dan syaitan. Lindgung lah kekasih ku dari segala alam petaka.

Ayg, i rindu u.

Its ok. I just wana prve to u dat i prioritise u more den frens. Ok.

I dpt both ur msgs at the same time. Ok. Nytez. Slp tite n swit drmz. Mwuahx Vanessa. :)

Ily. Very much ok. Dun leave me. Dun tok Japanese ok.

I tak sedap bdn lah ayg.

Ily ayg.

I love u. Tk cr ok. Bye.

I trust u. Dun worry.

Wher u at? U ok? Want me to fetch?

I Dun Tink, Theres A Chance Fer Us Animore.

Since U Dun Wan It Animore.

I Dun Wana Force.

I Give Up.

If Ever U Feel Like Coming Back.

I'll Still Rch Out.

I Love U.

Forever n Always.

Tc Syg.

:""""""(

MOMENT OF SADNESS

2009-03-01T14:22:00.004+08:00

Ive Tried Very Hard Not To Think About You.

Ive Tried Very Hard Not To Msg You.

Iver Tried Very Hard To Leave You.

But, I Cant.

Haix, I Feel So Incomplete Now.

There Isnt Any Light In My Life.

There Isnt Any Colours In My Life.

There Isnt Any Laughter In My Life.

There Isnt Any Excitement In My Life.

You Might See Me All Smiles.

You Might See Me All Laughter.

But Deep Down.

I Feel So Hurt, I Feel So Lonely.

I Past This Week Without You Here By My Side.

Alot Of Tears, Alot Of Hardship.

Haix.

I Duno Wat Else To Do.

I Duno Wat More To Do.

Pls, Cant You Be Back?

Cant You?

='(

CRYIN MY HEART OUT!

2009-02-28T12:55:00.004+08:00

Sitting In The Corner,

Crying My Heart Out.

I Duno Wat Happen, Or Wat Went Wrong.

Till It Came To This Stage.

I Tried To Be Very Strong.

I Tried To Give U Space.

But In The End, U Claim That Feelings Just Fade.

U Neva Tried To Understand.

U Said U Still Needed Me,

But U Keep Playing With My Heart.

Why Do U Always Give False Hope.

I Tried To Be Very Understanding.

Everyone Just Said, Give Him His Space.

N It'll Be Betta.

Ezah, Fathiah, Tammy.

They Are The People Who Really Noe My True Feelings.

Ive Cried To Ezah.

Ive Cried To Tammy.

N Slowly To Fathiah.

I Thot That If I Cud Undrstand U,

U'll Do The Same Thing Too.

But In The End, U Oni Undrstand Ur own Feelings.

Not Mine Or Others.

U Neva Reali Undrstand How Much I Disagree With The Space.

Afraid That We'll Be Apart In The End.

Afraid That Ur Feelings Will Fade.

Afraid That We Neva Had The Chance.

I Gave Up , But U Gave Me Hope.

But Ure The One Who Make Me Give Up Again.

='(

HELLO PEOPLE =)

2009-02-24T17:10:00.002+08:00

I Got Stitch To Accompany Me Ytd,

At TTSH.

So, Fer Nw.

Stitch Is My Fav Boyfren. =)

Im Finding Work.

Cause I Wana Surprise Him.

Fer Our 9Monthsary. (-,-)

Big One.

Pretty Pls.

I Want Job. =)

And To You Dear Firay,

Im Always Here If You Nid Me. =)

Btw, U Still Owe Me Sundae.

Cause I Passed My Exams.

N If I Passed My Exams Now,

I Want U To Treat Me Laksa Larr. =)

I LOVE YOU!

N I MISS YOU.

2009-02-23T16:14:00.000+08:00

I WANT MY OLD FIRAY BACK.

PLEASE. ='(

GDMORNING PEOPLE

2009-02-20T11:07:00.003+08:00

Hey People.

Guess Wat?

I Lost 4 Kg In A Weeks Tym.

HaHaHaHa.

Basically, I Din Have Any Appetite To Eat.

I Din Touch Any Proper Food Excpet Fer Bowling.

Oni One Time I Ate Rice.

During School?

I Ony Drank Water Most Of The Time.

Or Just Eat Bread.

HaHaHaHa.

At Home? Dun Ask.

I Dun Eat At Home Animore. =)

Jyeah. I Do Feel Hungry.

But I Dun Wana Eat.

Okay. Why I Put That Both Picture Up There.

Well. The One One The Left Is How I Smile Now.

The One On The Right Is How I Used To Smile.

I Kinda Miss That Smile.

Wholehearted Smile.

It Wont Come Back Fer Awhile.

Quote Fer The Day: Smile Eventhough Every Action Hurts. =))

PUT UP A BRAVE FRONT, PLEASE!

2009-02-19T17:54:00.005+08:00

Hey People!

Jyeah, Im Still Fighting With Bf.

Its Hard, Yknw.

I Miss Him, Realli.

But, Ive Made Up My Mind.

That Wateva Shits Or Craps Im Getting.

Im Still Gona Smile.

Eventhough It Hurts. =)

I Know That Ive Done Stupid Stuffs.

& Made U Super Disappointed In Me.

But All That Is Gona Stop.

Because, Im Still Gona Smile Even If It Hurts.

Because, Im Still Gona Hug U Even When Ure Mad.

Because, Im Still Gona Kiss You When Ure Sad.

Because, Im Still Gona Hold Your Hand When Ure Disappointed.

Because, Im Still Gona Love You When U Feel Like Giving Up.

Im Gona Prove To The Whole World.

That Im Gona Stay Positive.

Even When The Whole World Is Turning Its Back On Me.

Im Gona Prove To The Whole World.

That Im Gona Stay Strong.

N Stay True To You.

Yes, I Agree.

We Shudnt Give Up On Love.

N I Wont Give Up On U, NEVA EVER!

Ive Been Holding On Fer 8 Months.

Im Gona Hold On Even Longer

Dear Baby Or My Own Zac Efron.

I Love You Very Much.

Im Loving Ben10 Now.

Im Loving Avatar Now.

ThankYou Fer Proving Me That True Love Exist.

ThankYou Fer Showing That I Can Change.

ThankYou Baby.

I Know You Nid Tym Now.

Because I Hurt U Alot Lately.

I Understand.

I'll Just Pretend That U Still Havent Got Ur Hp.

I'll Be Fine.

I'll Just Rmbr Ur Smile.

I'll Just Rmbr Ur Hug.

N Imptly,

I'll Rmbr Ur Love.

I Love You Syg,

Even In The Mornings.

FUCK OFF

2009-02-18T17:06:00.002+08:00

SHOULD I GIVE UP?

SHOULD I STAY STRONG?

WHAT MUST I DO?

='(

UNTITLED

2009-02-17T15:27:00.002+08:00

Was Suppose To Gif Him Dis Today.
But, Too Many Obstacle To Go Thru.
He Din Rply To My Msgs.
I Guess He Dun Forgive Me.

All I Wanted Was Fer Him
To Wipe Away My Tears.
Am I Selfish?
He Isnt Always Dere When Im Down.

I Can Barely Hold My Hand Up.
I Havent Eat.
Ive Got No Money Left.

First, Family.
Now, Him.

Im Tired.
I Am.
N I Give Up To Impress Everyone.
Goodbye.
Im Changing My URL.

GREATEST TREASURE EVER!

2009-02-16T13:09:00.004+08:00

Sumhow Im Wondering Why Am I Given The Greatest Treasure.

What Greatest Treasure? I Mean 'Who'.

There, That Guy Up There.

And Who Ive Been Talking Abt In My Every Post.

Sumtyms I Wonder Too,

Why My Greatest Treasure Love Me So Much.

When All I Do Is Make Him Mad.

Sumtyms I Wonder Too,

Why We Get So Jealous.

When We Know We Only Love Each Other.

Why, Baby, Why?

Can You Answer My Question?

If Ever I Get The Chance To Hug God,

I'll Give HIM The Greatest Hug Ever.

Because He Gave Me The Greatest Treasure.

I Wish I Have The Guts To Tell Boyfren Directly,

How Much He Mean To Me.

How Thankful I Am.

That He Let Me Entered His Heart.

Yesterday Night, Before Goin To Sleep.

He Told Me Not To Let Him Go.

So, I Guess Y'all Know Wat My Ans WIll Be.

Dear Boyfren.

U Will Always Be In My Heart.

I Wish I Am Everything To You.

=')

I JUST LOVE HIM

2009-02-12T20:52:00.007+08:00

Hey People.

Sumhow,

I LOVE MY BOYFREN, DEARLY!

Ytd, He Told Me He Composed A New Song.

All I Could Do, Is Smile.

Sumhow, I Felt Relieved.

Atleast He Is Back To What He Is.

That Talented, Hot Rawkstar Boy I Know.

Well Baby, This Is What I'll Say:

Ouh Dear, If You'll Always Be Here.

I Will Always Stay True.

I Have Always Longed To Be In Ur Arms.

And Foreva In Ur Dreams.

Things Are Always Meant To Be.

Neva Changing Nor Turning.

Im Glad It Is With You,

Laughing Or Crying.

In Advance,

HAPPY 8 MONTHSARY BABY.

SUPERDOWN

2009-02-10T19:12:00.003+08:00

Sorie there isnt any photo or video uploaded. I seem to be very very very down today. so, before my battery laptop die, i wana update as much as i can. Mr Z says 'ure debarred for the moment'.
partly its my fault, i knw. but i did try to attend as much class as possible. i dun absent myself frm sch, i just tend to skip class. i know its equally bad. haix. that sentence really bring me down. i dun feel like coming to school. Summore, Bf doesnt say 'Ayg! Jgn jd pemls lar!! PERGI3!'. One after another bring me down. i wana cry again can? Bf? He just lost his Hp. So, i dun wanabe an asshole and add on to his prob. But yknw wat hurt me most? He ended the coversation wif 'okay, thanku. bye'. Deres no more ILY, MWUAH. summore, thats the first conversation we had in days. haix. i really feel so down. he neva comfort me abt sch. he's more busy with band. cause Black Valentine is coming dis fri. i feel neglected. jyeahh. i thot dis yr it'll be much special. cause, i neva clbrated Vday. pathetic huhh. but, jyeahh. but with everything comin afta another. i really feel like cryin. just nw, i boought him breakfast, he din wana take it till i askd aidil to gif it to him. haix. ='''( ytd, i din went home. i thot i wana de-stress myself. but to no avail. n when i rch home, mummy ask 'ila ngn firay ape jd?' each tym i hear his name. all i wana do is cry. slowly its dripping nw. n im shaking. n now, im having fam prob. ibu is always siding abg. kayy, nvm.i wna run to my room n cry now. tears are welling up on my eyes. Dear God, I Just Nid The Strength!

SHOWSTOPPER!

2009-02-07T21:37:00.001+08:00

All I Want Fer Vday Is You.

MISSING HIS SMELL!

2009-02-03T21:36:00.003+08:00

This Good Smelling.

Hot Looking.

Eccentric.

BOYFREN,

I Miss Alot.

I LOVE YOU, BBY!

2009-01-29T22:28:00.003+08:00

Hey Bby,

I Will Still Love You In The Morning.

Foreva & Eva, Baby.

You Wana Noe One Thing I Love About You?

Ur Kemanjaan.

Ouh God,

Thank You Fer Making Me The Luckiest Gal In The World.

Fer Having Such A Wonderful, Amazing, Fantastic

BOYFREN.

Heee. =)

WHATS WRONG?

2009-01-28T22:01:00.003+08:00

Ayg.
'Never Good Enuff Fer Everyone, Especially u'
Wrong.
U Have Always Been The Bestest.
Especially Fer Me.
Relationship Isnt Always Happy.
Im Glad We Do Have Fights.
'Gaduh Itu Lumrah. Ketatkan Silatulrahim.'
I Believe In Dat.
Atleast I Can Know U Betta.
I Can Know What U Love N Dislikes.

I Love You.
I Love Your Good Side.
N I Love Your Bad Side Too.
People Arent Always Good Or Perfect.
U Make Mistakes Too.
Dats Why I Once Said That 'Ive Forgiven U,
Even Before U Make That Mistake.'

I Know When Ure Angry.
U'll Tend To Say Stuffs
Dat Even U Dun Wish To Say.
What More Me?
Its About Me.
It Hurts. Alot.
But I Always Say To Myself.
'He's Angry. He'll Say Hurtful Stuff.
I Just Have To Take It In.
Altho Its Hurtful.
But Wat Can I Do?
I Just Haf To Be Patient.'
Altho It Make Me Cry N All.
But Deep Down Inside,
I Know U Love Me.
With All Ur Heart.
That's Why Ure Angry.
U Scold Bcoz U Wana Make This Rship Betta.
U Dun Wan Me Bcome A Pain In The Ass.

Syg,
I Love You.
N U Know It.
Im Sorie Fer All The Stupid Words I Said That Hurt U.
I Truly Am.
I Miss You. Badly.
I Wana Hug U & Cry.
Please. Can I? ='(

I Wan To See U All Smiling.
Even If I Cant.

I LOVE YOU, FOREVA & EVA BABE.

GOD, HELP AUNI PLEASE!

2009-01-28T21:43:00.004+08:00

Dear God,

Save Her Please. I Beg You.

End Her Misery, Please.

Shower Her With Everlasting Hapiness.

Everyone Love Her, God.

She Bring Smiles To Everyone.

Especially Me.

Im Sorry If I Spoilt Her.

Punish Me, God. Not Her.

She Is Innocent. ='(

I Love Her Ver Much.

Like My Own. Haix.

Take Away Her Pain.

Put It On Me Instead.

I'll Bear It. Fer Her I Always Will.

Even If I Have To Sacrifice My Own Life.

I Will Dear God. I Will.

Let Me Be The Victim.

Not Her Or Her Family Members.

Dun Let Tears Flow From Their Eyes.

I Can't Bear To See.

Especially Bby's & Ibu's.

Kak Myza, Be Strong Will You. Haix.

Auni, If Eva U Cud Undrstnd.

U Bring Me Joy.

U Bring Me Laughter.

U Bring Me Hapiness.

U Wipe Away All My Misery.

Please Be Strong Fer Everyone.

Please.

I Love You.

='(

[She Fell At The Escalator. She Got Stitches On Her Head.='(]

ITS NOT RIGHT!

2009-01-27T16:35:00.003+08:00

Its Goin To Be 8 Months. But Still We Fight Over Small Matter. Sayang Why? Did You Ferget The Deal About The Ego Thing? 'If I Put Away My Egoness, U Must Too' And What Did U Ans Me? Haf U Fergotten About All The Promises We Make? Each Time We Fight, U'll Leave Me Alone. Do U Know How It Feels? Hanging. I Haf Feelings Too Yknw. Nt Onli U. Its Not Always About U. U Told Me Once 'Its Nt About Gg My Way Nor Urs'. Its Inside That Album. But Why? U Once Say Too That Im On The Top Of Ur Priority List. But Why Do U Always Leave Me Alone? I Know Ure Mad, Im Mad Too. I Know Ure Hurt, But Im Hurt Too. Im Sorie Fer Everything. Im Sorie Im Neva Wat U Expect Me To Be. I Know Im Not Always Right. Im Not Perfect Yknw. I Too Make Mistakes. But Atleast U Cud Tell Me Wat I Did Wrong N Not Leave Me Alone. Syg Please I Beg U. I Want To Make It Right This Time. Please. Im Tryin. Its Ur Turn Now. Prove It. I Always Love U, Yknw. All ur Perfections N Imperfections Are The One That Help Me Become Wat I Am Today. Thank You. I Love You Always. Be It When We're Fightin Or Not. I'll Still Love U In The Morning. Foreva & Eva Babe. =')

SORIE?

2009-01-25T19:38:00.001+08:00

U'll Be Askin Why I Neva Rply To Ur SMS Animore When We Fight. It Because I Dun Wana Hurt U Animore With My Hurtful Words. I Feel Its Betta That I Just Keep Quiet When Ure Scolding. I Understand That U'll Say All Those Stuff Bcoz Ure Really Angry. I Dun Even Noe Wthr I Shud Be Angry Or Not. I Dun Really Noe Wat My Emotions Are Now. I Dun Even Feel My Heart Now Bcoz Ure Always Pointing Out The Bad Stuff. Love Isnt About Power, Control Or Abuse. Love Isnt Always Pleasant Or Beautiful. Love Isnt Always Smooth Sailing. BUT, When Love Is Pleasant And Beautiful, I Am Glad That Its With You. Ive Learnt To Control Anger Now. U May Say 'Yeah2' Now. But Let Me Tell U Dat It Doesnt Mean That When I Fight Back, Im Angry With You. I Duno Wthr Sorie Is A Word Now. Bcoz Its Still The Same. Either Im Hurting U Or U Hurting Me. 'Sorie' Will Always Be Said But Its Still The Same.

This PUKIMAK. This SIAL Face.

Still Loves You.

Goodbye.

THE DANCE

2009-01-18T23:14:00.005+08:00

So I Met Bby Today.

Was Suppose To Do My BPS Projek.

But Instead,

I Help Bby Do His POM Projek.

HaHaHaHa.

Bby, Untung Ade I Kan?

HaHaHaHa.

So, While Doing His Projek.

The Song Seribu Tahun Played.

He Took My Hand.

N We Danced.

HaHaHaHa.

Crazy Huhh.

Danced Till The Music Stopped.

Baby So Sweet.

When I Saw U, I Fell In Love.

N U Smiled, Bcoz U Knew!

ADDICTED TO SUCI!

2009-01-16T22:18:00.004+08:00

I So Love This Picture! =)

ThankYou Derrick.!

He Shot It With Sch Cam.

Its All Ova My Stuff. Hee!

My Desktop Wallpaper.

My Hp Wallpaper.

Jyeah2. So?

I Love Him.

_____________________________________

So Im Addicted Now To

The Indonesian Drama,

SUCI,

Mas Bayu. Hahahaha.

Part-lylahh.

And The Story Line.

Pls, Make Me Weep All The Tym.

Okay, So It Gt All Ova Me.

______________________________________

I Still Got ETP Report To Finish.

Due Date : 11 Feb 2008.

AndAnd BPS Report Too

Due Date : First Week Of Feb.

God!

I Nid To Start Already. HaHa.

Okay, Gotta Admit.

I Like Sch Now.

Cause I Realise Ive Got Like

Way Wacky Classmates Now.

They Make Me Smile Most Of The Tym.

AndAnd I Can Study Betta.

But, I Hate SQC.

Pls, I Cant Stand Her Alreadi.

She So Fussy.

I WANT MISS CHAN BACK!

P.S I Always Do Love Boifren.

FEARING!

2009-01-13T22:34:00.003+08:00

Please Bare With Me.

Im Gona Write A Very Long Post.

Dear BbyPrince.MOshb.

I Am Sorry.

Fer Sayin That Sentence.

I Shudnt Haf, I Cudnt Control Myself.

While Typing This, My Hands Are Shaking Like Fuck.
Let Me Tell You Everything That Is In my Heart.

Firstly, I Miss You So Bad.

Even Allah Cant Describe It In Words.

Im Tearing Apart, Looking At How My Family Is.

All I Nid Now Is U.

To Hold Me Tight In Ur Arms.

Like How U Were Dere Fer Me The Last Time I Cried.

Like How U Wipe Away My Tears.

Like How U Keep On Telling Me Dat Im Strong.

Like How U Kissed Me To Give Me Strentgh.

Secondly, My Only Weakness Is U.
Dun Leave Me, Please.

What Kind Of Boyfren Are U?

There Is Two Parts.The Good And The Bad.

Let Me Emphasize On The Good One.

You Are Sweet, Adorable, Kind, Loving, Caring,

One-Of-Kind, Funny, Helpful, Talented, Crazy.

You Are Hot, Cute And Handsome.

I Can Go On And On.

Then, There Is The Bad Side.

You Are Egois When We're Fighting.

You Dun Wana Back Down.

You Are Stuck Up.

You Know I Won't Win When Fighting With You.

But Your Every Single Words.

Hurt Me So Bad That I Can't Even Feel My Own Heart.

__________________________________________________

Im Sorie Fer Every Single Words I Said

That Hurt You,That Bring You Down.

I Din Mean To Hurt U,

But I Just Want U To

Realise That U Only Want Me To Understand U.

But Wat About Me? Who Else If Not U?

Why Cant We Compromise.? Why?

I Feel Disgusted Of Myself Fer Hurting U.

No, I Dun Feel Happy About It.

I Feel So Low, So Cheap.

Im Sorie.

Would You Forgive Me?

I'll Kneel Down Or Even Make A Fool Of Myself.
Forgive Me Pls?

_______________________________________________

U Are The First Eva.
To Capture My Whole Heart.
To Prove To Me That Even Guys Do Haf
Sensitive Feelings.
That Even Guys Want To Be Pampered And Loved.
That Even Guys Feel The Same
Way The Girls Do.

I Feel Im Lucky To Haf U.
U Smile Infront Of Me,
U Get Mad At Me,
U Control Me,
U Cry In Front Of Me,
U Get Jealous Easily,
U Trust Me.
Thank U Fer Being Urself Infront of me.

Atleast I Know, U Do Love Me.
U Care For Me.
U Always Say ‘People Scold Because They Care, They Love’
Thank You.
Fer Giving Me Ur Love,
Fer Pulling Me Up When Im Down,
And To Remind Me Of Whr I Am When Im High Above.

I Love Wholeheartedly.
With All My Heart And Soul.
I Love You Till Eternity.
Death Can Hinder Us.
But I Promise U,
Dat When Im Gone,
My Soul Will Love U Endlessly.

With U,
I Dun Flirt With Other Guys.
I Dun Look At Otha Guys In Their Eyes.
I Dun Do Anything U Dun Like.
I Always Think About U.
I Always Think Of The Happy Moments We Are Together.
I Always Love U.

Each Tym I Tink Of U.
I Always Rmbr
The Way U Grab My Hand.
The Way U Pull Me in Ur Arms.
The Way U Kissed My Forehead.
The Way U Carry Me When Im Tired.
The Way U Feed Me.
The Way U Stroke My Hair.
The Way We Curse People.
The Way We Walk To Bb Mrt At Night.
The Way U Eat With Fork & Spoon.
The Way U Love Auni.
The Way U Talk Abt Ur Ibu.

I Love You.
I Love You.
I Love You.

Would You Forgive Me, Pls?

I Hate My Brother!

2009-01-13T14:08:00.003+08:00

I Shudnt Haf Posted The Last Post.

Sumone Assumed I Went Out

Wif Sumone Else.

I Hate My Fuckin Bro.

He Made Mum Cried In The Morning.

Dad Found Drug In His Bag.

Who The Fuck He Tink He Is.

Daddy Paid Fer His Fines.

Daddy Still Feed Him.

Mummy Still Gives Him Allowances.

He Shud Haf Died A Long Time Ago.

I Hate Him.

Urggh.

Family Is Gg Apart.

Ive Got Ntg Now.

Gdbye!

GREASE, BABY!

2009-01-09T10:38:00.004+08:00

Hey Ppl!

Went To Watch Grease With Baby.

Well, Its The 'ITE Version'

We Went To Watch It At

ITE Simei.

It Was Rough At First.

Not The Musical.

But This Fcukin Uncle,

In Front Of Me.

Fcukin Irritating.

Intermission, He Smiled At Me.

Funny Uhk?

The Musical Was Okay.

Not So Grand.

But It Was Pretty Much Okay.

Im Dead Beat.

Gdbye.

P.S Boyfren, I Love You!

I LOVE BOYFREN!

2009-01-06T22:38:00.006+08:00

Boyfren Is The Greatest.

He Bought Merci For Me.

Yayyy!

Boyfren,

Thankyou Fer The Chocs.

Thankyou Fer The Kisses.

Thankyou Fer The Hugs.

Thankyou Fer The Laughter.

Thankyou Fer The Smile.

Most Imptly,

Thankyou Fer The Love.

I Love You!

P.S Ayg! Perform Decode Pls.

SO LONG 2008

2009-01-03T23:12:00.003+08:00

Hey Ppl
Happy New Year.
2009 Eyy.

Sorie Fer The Lack Of Updates.
Have Been Njoyin Hols Wif My Only Bby.
Mon Sch Will Be As Per Normal.
Dry And Dead.
Urghh. *Get Ova It*

____________________________________________

So Lets Start,

Start Of The New Year Did Not Go Very Well.
Too Hard To Handle.

To That Person

I Won't Be Interfering In Ur Personal Life Again.
Its Very Tiring When U Guys Wont
Listen To Any Advise We Say.
We Tried Very Hard To Let U Guys Understand
The Power Of Love.
The DOs and DON'Ts.
The Evilness Of Egos.

But U Guys Still Dun Wana Take It Up.
Her With Her Ego, Her Expectation, Her Sensitiveness
Him With His Over-Protectiveness, His Over Jealous.

When Together, U Guys Fight Like Fighting In A War.
When Apart, Cried Ur Hearts Out.
Rmbr One Thing.
No One Will Love You Like How He Do.
No One Will Forgive U Easily Like How He Do.

Not Noe-ing Ur Ego-ness Is One Thing.
But Admitted Having Ego-ness
And Not Doin Anything Abt It
Is Anotha Thing.

We're Adults Now.
Making Decision Maturely.

We Can't Expect Guys To Come
Pacify Us When We're Sulking.
Guys Can't Read Our Mind.
Therefore, We Can't Get Mad At Them
When We Dun Get What We Want.
Life Is Neva Fair.
Hapiness Comes With Alot Of Obstacles.
When U Want Them To Pacify U Or Say Sorie.
Tell Them Straight To The Face.
Coz Guys Dun Like To Play Around The Bush.

I've Learnt To See Things In A Diff Perspective.
I've Learnt To Cherish Every Single Thing
While Im Still Alive.
Im Passing This On To You.
Must Not Be Selfish With Knowledge.
Ur Choice Wthr You Wana Listen Or Not.

_______________________________________________

PS I Love Stitch.
ThankYou Syg.
N I Gotta Kol Ur Mummy, 'Ibu'.
Yayy.

I Love You Baby.
I Really Do.

2008-12-30T13:31:00.000+08:00

Sumhow, I Love Her.

P.S I'll update Soon.

Sorie.

THNK YOU BOYFREN!

2008-12-16T12:14:00.003+08:00

Saturday & Sunday
Rawk The Shit Out Of Me.

Packed My Bag & Left
Fer Uncle Wedding. Urgh!
Ard 5, I Quickly Went Off.
To Meet Boyfren.
Boyfren Planned To Overnight At Ecp.
I Waited Fer Boyfren At Inter.
We Atlast Decided To Take 196 At Clementi.
So Jyeah. Took 106.
Alight One Stop After Sch.

Boarded 196 Ard 18Plus Hours.
Inside Bus Sat Down.
Boyfren Spoke,
'Ayg, Tkmo Slp Tau.
Talk Ngn I'
He Look Me In The Eyes.
God, I Miss Him.
So, I Blabbered Non-Stop.
All He Did Was Listened.
At This One Time,
He Hugged Me Frm Behind.
Ouhh God, I Miss Him More.
Alhamdullilah.
Atleast I Still Know,
He Still Do Love Me.

Rchd Ecp.
Bt Had To Wonder Ard First.
Wan Yet To Arrive.
Coz Tent Was At His House.
He Had Some Work To Do.
So He Arrived At 0100Hours.
Lame Perr. Hahaha.

He Help Set The Tent.
Coz Syg Din Believe Dat I Cud Set It Up.
Bustedd!! I Ain't No Bimbo Okay.
Hahahaa.
So Wan Slacked Fer Awhile.

We Woke Up The Next Day
To A Raining Weather.
Wastedd.
So We Slacked Fer Awhile.
Atlast Decided To Swim
Under The Pouring Rain.
OMG! Sejuk *Auni Version*

Ard 11hours.
Packed The Tent.
And Went To Wash Up.
Still It Was Raining.
We Heck Larr.
Mandi Sejuk Giler.
Both Of Our Hands Went Numb.

We Drop The Tent At Wan's Hs Again
ThnkYou.
Took train To Bb.
Slept On Our Way Hm.
But Syg Had To Go Kompang.
I Followed.

Rchd Back Home After Kompang
At 2130hours.
Met Ibu n Mak.
Atlast. Hahaha.
Auni Was Dere Too.
Putri Bby Also.
Missing Dem Larr. =)

Slpova At Syg's Hs.
Coz It Was Late.
Yayyy!
Watched Wild Child Before Gg To Slp.
Syg Was Like Yayying Here N Dere
Hahaha. Cuteness.

Monday Night Was Home Sweet Home.
Daddy Din Nagged. =)
I Was Too Tired.
Went To Slp. Gosh.

Boyfren, You Rawk.!
I LOVE YOU SEXY!

p.s. can't wait fer 19.12.2008
drink till i die can? hehh

IM SORRY!

2008-12-07T12:37:00.004+08:00

Im Gg Mia-ing Fer Awhile.

In Blog, Myspace, Tagged, MSN, Calls, Msgs, Wateva.

I Feel Very Disgusted Of Myself.

Im Sorry.

Im Out Of Control.

Take Care.

KHEKHE!

2008-12-04T19:51:00.004+08:00

So I Miss My Hair.
The Hair In The Picture.
Sob3. Regrets.

__________________________________________

So, Today Syg Made Me Laugh Like Hell.
Altho I Was Made Fun By Him.
But I Love It.
Cause Its The Way He Uses To Treat Me.
Bdh2Kn Org, Pastu Ketawe Like Hell.
I Just Love The Way He Laughs.

'Ayg.U Patne?'
'I Aru Smpi Skola. Nape?'
'I Nk Alek Uhk. Penat Gile Sehk'
'Ouhh, U Patne? Central?'
'Ah2, Masih Jauh'
Soon Den, Saw Hasan's Motorbike.
Him As The Pillion.
'Uuuuu.Tipu!!'
'Hahahahahahaha'
'Cb Uhk. Hahahaha'
'U, Dtg Sini Uhk'
'Ok'

_____________________________________________

Ytd, He Askd Me.
'Will You Love Me If Im Crazy?'
'Yes, I Will'

Syg,
I'll Love You.
Even If Ure Crazy.
I'll Prove To You.
Dat No Matter What Happen,
I'll Love You Fereva.
Maybe U Won't Be Able To
Differentiate Who Loves U By Den.
But Im Sure,
I'll Be Able To Love And Care Fer You.

I LOVE YOU, SYG.
=)

SUMTYMS, I WISH

2008-12-01T18:38:00.002+08:00

Today, Im Grateful.

Cause Syg Gave Me

One Of My Fav Junk Food.

DONUTS.

Yay. Swit KanKanKan?

But I Gave Him Subway Cookies.

I Hope He Likes It.

I Went Out Early In The Morning

To Get It. =)

Things A Bit Diff Nw.

I Dun Text Him Much Often.

Cause Im Scared.

Im Scared To Look Into His Eyes.

I Really Am.

I Just Wish I Cud Be Like The Last Tym.

Loving Him Unconditionally.

Isnt Afraid To Kiss Him.

Isnt Afraid To Hug Him.

Isnt Afraid To Caress Him.

Isnt Afraid To Do Anything To Him.

But Im Afraid Now,

That If I Do All That.

He Doesnt Like It.

I Dun Wana Ask Him.

Cause Im Scared He Will Nt Like It.

Im Really Afraid Now.

To Hurt Him N All.

But By Doing So,

NtahhLahh.

I Dun Feel The Same.

Im Just Scared Sehk.

Pls. Help Me.

Syg, I Nid You Ryte Now.

I Nid Ur Presence By My Side.

________________________________________________

To Dat Fucking Sumone,

Pls Larr Stop It Larr.

Aku Bingit Larr.

Jgn Kacau Aku Lagi. Pls.

Aku Beg Kau.

Ko Tak Fhm Ke.

Aku Tk Layan Ko,

Maknanye Aku Mls.

Just Fuck Off Larr.

Jgn Tambah Masalahh Aku.

Fuck Off Idiot!

THANK YOU!

2008-11-30T21:58:00.001+08:00

Dear BbyPrince.M0shb,
To you that said, "Sex CAN wait"
To you that said, "You're beautiful."
To you that was never too busy to drive across town to see me.
To you that visits me when im sick or down.
To you that said you would die for me.
To you that really would.
To you that did what i wanted to do.
To you that cried in front of me.
To you that i cried in front of.
To you that holds hands with me.
To you that kisses me with meaning.
To you that hugs me when Im sad.
To you that hugs me for no reason at all.
To you who would give your jacket up for me.
To you that calls to make sure i got home safe.
To you that would sit and wait for me for hours just to see me for ten minutes.
To you that would give your seat up.

To you that just wants to cuddle.
To you that reassured me that i was beautiful no matter what.
To you who told your secrets to me.
To you that tried to show how much you cared through every word and every breath.
To you that thought maybe this could be the one.
To you that believed in my dreams.
To you that would have done anything so i could achieve them.
To you that never laughed at me when i told you my dreams.
To you that walked me to my home and opened the door.
To you that gave your heart.
To you who prays that im happy even if you are not with me.

thank you.
every single thing that u did fer me.
i truly appreciate it.
even if its in good or bad terms.
i truly am grateful.
thank you fer believing in me.

I Love You.
Like How SunShines.
I Love You.
Like How SunSets.
I Love You.
Like How Paradise Feels.
I Love You.

Even in Bad Terms.
I Still Do Love You.
With Every Sgl Bit Of My Heart.
I Really Do.

THANK YOU.

FALLING APART

2008-11-29T13:24:00.003+08:00

Blog Is My Only Companion Fer Ryte Nw.

So, Bare Wif Me Fer A Moment.

Let Me Vent My Every Emotions,

Cause Sooner Or Lata, Im Lettin Dem Go. =)

To The Person In The Picture,

Thank You Fer Picking Me Up,

When Im Falling Hard To The Ground.

Thank You Fer Letting Me Be Strong,

When All I Eva Possess Is Weakness.

Thank You Fer Giving Me Strength,

When Im Dying Away.

Thank You.

_______________________________________________

Its Kinda The Same Situation Ryte Now.

I Still Yet To Hear His Voice.

When I Took The Train Home Ytd,

Passed By Bukit Batok.

Its Very Hard, I Swear.

Suddenly, 6June2008 Outing Popped

Out Of My Mind.

The Day I Gotta Hold His Hand

Fer The Very First Time.

The Day I Gotta Hug Him

Fer The Very First Time.

That Is Affection.

I Felt The Love Empowerin Inside.

I Swear To God, That Im Grateful

The Train Was Packed The Other Day.

He Said That He'll Tell ____,

That He Loves Me.

OuhhYahh,On That Day Too, He Said,

'You Kai Hp I Dulu Larr Syg!'

Yknw, How Sweet Was Dat? Haix.

I Really Miss Those Times.

Whr Quarrel & Fites Wasn't Even

In Our Dictionary.

He's My Everything! IMYSM.

Sumtyms I Wish,

He Was There Under My Blk,

Waiting To Hug Me Tight.

Fer Nw, I Wished He Wud Say,

'Ayg, Nak Jumpe I?'

But The Main Problem is,

'I WISH'.

I Pray To God,

That He Still Do Love Me

With All His Heart.

"I WISH UPON A SHOOTING STAR

THAT OUR RELATIONSHIP

WOULD BE BETTER!"

IMYSM, ILYSM

_____________________________________________

29 November 2008

0313hours

'I. I love you. Very much.'

Syg,

Nt A Sgl Molecule

In This World,

Cud Eva Trade Your Plc.

Rmbr That, Pls!

Take Care Pls.

IM SORIE!

2008-11-27T18:12:00.005+08:00

I Lied. I Did. Im Sorie.

The Truth, I Dun Wan Any Space.

I Lied. For You.

For Your Needs And Wants.

How Cud Eva I Wan Space,

When All I Eva Needed Is You.

I Cudnt Slp Last Nite.

I Kept Tossin & Turnin.

But All I Cud Do Is To Think About You.

When I CLose My Eyes,

I See You Dere, Smilling At Me.

When I Open My Eyes,

Its You I Think Of.

Why? Why?

I Agreed To Haf Some Space,

Bcoz You Want It Badly.

I Stubbornly Din Wan It.

But, Bcoz Of My Love Fer You,

I Did.

Im Scared U'll Leave Me.

I Feel Very Insecure When Ure Not Around.

I Swear.

When I Got Off The Bus,

Ur Fren Asked 'Mane Firay?'

All I Cud Ans Is 'Tak Tau'

'Da Brape Lame Ko Tak Jumpe Dia?'

Haix. 'One Week'.

'Lamenye. What Happen?'

'Jgn Tanye Pls.' I Walked Off.

I Tried To Hold Back My Tears.

I Did Tried. But, I Cudnt.

I Miss Your Presence, Badly.

All I Need Is Just One Hug.

To Let Me Know That,

Things Will Turn Out Right.

But Wad Cud I Do. Ntg.

Space Is Ur Final Decision.

I Cant Change It.

I Promised Not To Botha You.

So, I Wont.

I Love You.

Dats Why Im Doing This Fer You.

I'll Sacrifice Anything.

Just To Make You Happy.

Take Care Pls.

=''(

Gave Up

2008-11-26T12:24:00.004+08:00

home isnt a plc whr i wanabe ryte nw.

everything seem so chaotic nowadays.

wif everyone fiting wif one anotha.

so, i just fought wif my fucking brotha yet again.

him: diam uhk bodoh.

me: sape sial bodoh, ko ke aku sial.

him: ko uhk sial.

me: ehk, ko ble rilek sua.

him: siallah uhk. aku dpt masok express lahh.

me: so, ko fikir aku heran.

him: ko tu jeles.

me: aku jeles? hahh. aku doa2 kn ko fail.

who the fuck he tink of himself?

so wat if im nt as clever as him.

atleast ive got manners when it comes to mum.

fuck him, fuck his life.

arrgghh.

boyfren was the one who haf always been dere.

now? i duno. he just isnt.

now, his priorities are his frens & his life.

me? im neva found.

who am i suppose to turn to now?

no one sehk.

yknow, ive dedicated my whole life to him.

i just dun feel the love from him animore.

i feel change is betta.

Ya Allah,

dgrlah rintihan hambamu ini.

aku dahagakn kasih syg kekasihku.

di manekah dia menghilang.

dia adalah hidopku.

kenapa dia berubah, ya allah?

adakah aku penyebabnya?

atau adakah dia sudah tidak mencintaiku lagi?

Ya Allah, Berikan aku pertunjuk.

Amin.

I MISS HIM =(

2008-11-22T19:38:00.004+08:00

Maybe Im a Lil Too Hard On Him I Guess.

Im Really Sorie.

The Fact That You Gonna Leave Me Again,

Haunts My Mind So Bad.

Dear Blog,

Only To You I Confess Everything.

U've Been The Best Listening Ear Ever.

So Now, Pls Lend Me Ur 'Ear' Again.

I Love Firay With All My Soul Cud eva Possess.

Nothing In Dis World Cud Eva Trade His Place.

His Been The Best Boyfriend I Cud Eva Haf.

He's Loving, Caring, Nice, Crazy, Hardcore,

One-Of-A-Kind, Hot, Handsome, Spoilt, Manje,

Lazy, Sweet, Stubborn, Fussy, Mummy's Boy,

A Good Singer & Guitarist & Drummer, Friendly,

Imptly Everyting.

He's The Perfect Guy In My Eyes.

All His Imperfections Are Perfect Too.

I Still Rmbr He Always Came By My House When Im Sick.

I Still Rmbr He Gave Me Candles.

I Still Rmbr He Always Lay Down On My Lap.

I Still Rmbr I Usually Slpova At His House.

I Still Rmbr He Sang To My Ear While I Was Standing At His Door Room.

I Still Rmbr He Always Ask Me To Eat.

I Still Rmbr He Scold Me For Spoilt-in Auni.

I Sill Rmbr He Kisses Me At The Forehead.

I Still Rmbr He Hold My Hand & Dun Wana Let Go.

I Stil Rmbr He Sayin 'Abu', 'Nenek'.

I Still rmbr Everything About Him.

I Love Him. I Love Him.

He's My Half Soul.

Without Him I'll Fall So Bad.

I've Dedicated All My Life To Him.

I Really Nid Him Till My Last Counting Breathe.

I Hope He's Reading This.

I really Want Him To Know.

Dat I Really Love Him.

I Miss Him Now. ='(

Im gg MIA-ing fer Awhile.

I'll Come Back Once Im Betta.

I'm Really Weak Ryte Now.

All I Nid Is Him.

I Swear. Take Good Care Guys.

Please. ='(

IM SUPER DISAPPOINTED!

2008-11-22T14:05:00.003+08:00

'Why Dun Do It With Both?'
I'll always rmbr dat line bby.
Ppl gets unreasonable at tyms.
But wat for, if dey dun learn a sgl thing.

In ur life, its always fair.
im being very patient.
i really am. & i'll blow up soon.
im vry disappointed in you.
u dun seem to treat me fairly now.
u dun seem to listen to every sgl thing i say now.
i askd u not to re-pierce ur collarbone.
ouhh. hell no. u stil insisted.

but being a 'great' gf.
i forgave you.
i just heck about it.
but when it comes to ur 'rimas' part.
pls, tok to urself.
& if i cant ask u any more qns.
i promise u, i wont.
dun say wthr i change or wat.
coz im doing WAT U LIKE.
im going ur way.
im tired to fite nor quarrel.
if u tink wat ure doing now is reasonable & fair.
pls, im willing to follow.

jyeah, i change.
i change because u change.
ure not dat caring nor concern animore.
u do wat pleases u. haix.
so, im putting away all my emotion.
just fer you.
im really tired.

gdbye. take care.
ila is not ila animore.
='(

FULFILL MY WISH, PLS GOD

2008-11-18T22:15:00.003+08:00

I MISS FIRAY!

ARGGGHHH.

its been 4 days ive neva spent tym wif him.

even if we met at sch, it'll just be:

-u, salam.

-u, tak masok klas?

-u, da mkn?

-u, nak hug.

-u, hi!.

-u, i nk kua g block jap tau.

its hard you noe.

since i always spent most of my tym wif him.

i really do miss him like hell.

i cried ytd nite.

i cant take it animore.

i really need him ryte nw den anione else.

i swear sehk. sob3.

AGAIN,randomly his sweet msgs.

18Nov2008,0101hrs

I rindu u. As much as u rindu i. Tpi....

Haix. I tk tau lah.

Cyg, i maseh sygkan u seyy.

Nape u ckp i da tk syg u seyy?

I dun noe, evertime kte gado,

ur past haunts me.

I asyik imagine u klua ngan laki laen,

noty2 ngan laki laen,

___ ngn laki laen.

I nanak ckp ni smue psl i tkt nant u ckp i tk

trime u _________ n stuffs. I sygkn u.

I nak kahwin ngn u, naek pelamin ngn u,nanak tglkn u.

Tpi asyik gado over stupid matters. Abeh i...Haix.

i penat nak gado. I nak settle down.

18Nov2008,1412hrs

Ayg. I sorie. Btol. I tal make effort to jmpe u.

Wen u really miss me, wen ure in need of me.

Ive havent been a good bf lately.

Im sorie. I really am.

Imy, as much as u miss me.

Tpi i tak tau y ive been very tired n lazy lately.

Ily syg. Very much. I do.

Believe me pls.

18Nov2008,1658hrs

Ayg..i syg u. :)

18Nov2008,1807hrs

Ayg.I syg u.U jgn ade laki laen okay? Pls?

18nov2008,1816hrs

I syg! U! bnyk! Skali!

18Nov2008,1831hrs

Ayg. I da smpi tau. U jage diri u baek2 pls.

I da abes keje, i txt u k.

I tk sabar bsok, i bleh spend time ngn u.

Ayg. I rurve u.

18Nov2008,1837hrs

Hahak. I rurve u darling.

Mlm tok ngn i k.

u tk cr too. Mwuahx. Love2.

18Nov2008,2209hrs

Ayg. I rindu u.

Bsok hug i lame2 k?

Gossh. Its hard to be apart frm him. =(

IM BLESSED

2008-11-17T22:27:00.005+08:00

Its 4 days afta 5 month anni.
monthsary wasnt that grand.
hahaha. but overall, swit larr.
we had loads of laughter.
im having holes in my wallet.
so, all i gave him was:
a frame with our pics.
& a letter for him.
so it was budget.
hahaha.
but it really came fom my heart.

today's post is simple.
overall.
I MISS FIRAY DEARLY.
clearly stated at my myspace & msn.
i really miss him.

AN OLD MEMORY

2008-11-12T10:13:00.004+08:00

i rmbrd of an old story:

"dere was this gal,

who loved her bf as much.

she cud even sacrifice anything for him.

things went all smoothly.

romance and stuffs.

but,

she wasnt aware that something bad was gg to hpn.

that her lover, was gg away.

far from her.

he claimed that she changed.

so, anonymous came.

to aid him.

something slipped from his mind.

that the gal loved him so much.

that she thot wat she gave him,

was the best she had.

all she cud do was to love him from afar.

it aches her when she realise that he's gg far away.

she tried everything she cud, to haf him back.

but all he cud say was,

'i was about to fly free,but you hold me down'.

he might not undrstnd.

but it hurt her damn bad.

she cried helpess nights n days.

her frens askd her to forget abt him.

n to be strong.

but how cn she?

when part of her soul went away.

leaving her helpless.

her own self went away.

she doesnt care less abt herself.

every sgl day, every sgl moment,

all she did was to think of him.

suddenly, a miracle.

he came back.

claiming that he still loves her.

no one cud feel wat she felt on that day.

but she din noe,

that with a miracle, came many more obstacles.

she still found out that he still likes anonymous.

that even leaves more scars.

one day, she askd him out on weekend.

she cudnt make it in the aftanoon.

so she suggestd to mit at nite.

but he said NO.

cause he's meetin anonymous that nite.

ouhh, only god feels her that moment.

no one saw her reaction.

but surely, you noe how she felt.

frequent fites came along.

he decides to leave her again.

she cant take it animore.

so she decided to take her life.

by den, she gave everyting up.

even the love for him.

isit still too late for him to realise,

dat she loved him the most?

maybe its best fr him to decide."

i cudnt slp well last nite.

n i rmbr of an old memory.

i cudnt void it, altho it hurts damn bad.

it leaves scars behind.

all is forgiven, bu cant be forgotten.

till now, it hurts so deep.

my heart's wounded.

i pray, it'll neva hpn.

='(

Not Myself This Days, Im Sorry!

2008-11-09T13:42:00.004+08:00

Things haf been rough lately.

i mean it, ROUGH!.

part & parcel of relationships.

either you hold on strong or you let go.

i dun eva wana let go of bby.

i'll hold him tightly.

even if he scream in pain.

in every corner of my life,

he's been dere.

he help me thru, he made me strong.

i'll hold him tight,

even if it takes all my energy.

i lacked of slp.

i lacked of energy.

i lacked of food.

im sick, im weak.

but i dun wan bby to go thru dis mess with me.

i forced myself to eat.

even if my throat hurts.

i dun wan him to starve himself too.

To bby,

you may think dat im stronger.

but im nt without you.

you may think i dun nid you.

but im in nid of you.

every moment, every sec.

you may think im happy,

but im nt without you.

you may think im not hurt,

but i hurt you.

Im sorie ive nt been myself.

i cudnt get hold of myself.

i tend to let my anger overcome me.

im sorie if i used alot f harshness towards you.

but bby, trust me, its not intentional.

im sorie if i was a jerk to you.

im sorie. ='(

DRUG ALLERGIES

2008-11-07T21:01:00.002+08:00

HeyHey.
My attendance improve dis week.
wat a wonder. haha. pathetic.
So i din come oni on wed.
due to some personal probs.
Im startn to be good eyy?
i wana improve on my attendance larr sehk.
wana buck up on studies.
alreadi askd help frm Mr Zaki. *chehh2*.

&& i nid to work.
i nid to save up fer bby's bdae.
gosh, the price? ovewhelming. haha.
so basically dats why larr sehk.
summore i nid extra money to buy my stuffs.

bby's busy with jamming & bbdc.
so im stuck at home with ntg.
im dwn with drug allergy. wtf.
just got it when watchin dem jammin.
hahaha. sorrie guys fer bringin the disease.
ate the meddy & my body damn weak.
i cant think hard or undrstnd wat anyone's toking.
so, just quarrel with bby. ntahh. i oso dunno why.
hey. aku saket. leniency pls.

kkay. i duno wat else.
due to malfunctionin of the brain.
update more soon.
tc dude & dudettes.

I LOVE FIRAY. =)

2008-11-05T17:41:00.004+08:00

Firay again.

Fucked right back?(COPY AND PASTE) Thru a blaack pussy? HELL NO!!! hahaha

shame on me looking down on ppl's skin colour?

Kamarul and a bangla? why not be with a bangla?bodoh.

sendiri sendiri tgk skin.

klau tak tgk skin,follow ur own skin colour,mataer ngan bangla.

aku tak syg mulot? korg tu tak sygg nyawa.

Firay here,calling all BANKING MOTHAFUCKERS to whacked me up.

i dun mind if its 10 against 1.

u'll be surprise to wad i can do.

dun werry.

its just me fighting this battle. and my bby of coz.

EH BANGLA,AKU CABAR KAU SEPAK AKU. :)

jgn lupe complain kat MY OWN FRIEND. (We didnt asked to be labled zac efron & Vanessa)

Maybe i'll label u karina karina kapoor. feelin better? coz karina is white u noe.

huak2.

see i knew it. she lost it.
Ever ask urself why ure fighting this battle?
i fight fer a reason. Be good in front of my gf,bhind herr bck,u talk bad bout her.
Wad are u fighting fer? Cant accept the thangs that i sed?
dun always think ure right, dun always think ure 1 step ahead from others.
Coz ure not. tone dwn ur ego,and i'll tone dwn mine.
and kama. i specifically wanna put dwn ur name. u dun even noe wad this arguement is all abt.

and u think its abt colourism? its abt two-face freak! i wudnt step into this matter if i were u.

fer all u noe,she might be talking bout u bhind ur back.hah(olready did,i guess)
but if a war is wad u want,its wad u'll get.

i can leave a fren like u, but i cant leave my ego.

WHAT THE FUCK, PLEASE.

2008-11-04T21:20:00.002+08:00

So, Kharmila here.
let me tell you a story abt an ungrateful fren.
So here goes.

Its been a few days since i come sch.
due to my HIGH FEVER.
[sorie uhk si diktu yang takde high fever].
so, she walkd past my boyfie's table.
'ehk, suroh ila dtg skola. ade byk projek nk uat'.
im not too sure wthr she askd nicely or not. =)
so my boyfie rplied.
'asl korg bully dia uhk suro uat projek smua.
sampai dia kena stay up late.
maybe tu sbb dia nk quit skola'.
im not too sure wthr its nicely said or not. =)
and she rply with her bitchy face [sorie uhk, BOYFREN aku yg ckp]
'i din ask her to stay up late pe'.
& stg else abt study smart.
my boyfie got all workd up.

ive got no comments.
i wana heck like wat i said to UR GALFREN.
& so i thot i called her a 'fren'.
but turns out nahhhhhhh. =)

ohhh damn.
she lost it AGAIN. =)
[i wish i cud help, but sorie, no thanks]

stll going on strong
firay and ila.

To all Nicompoops.

2008-11-03T20:11:00.005+08:00

heyhey. firay here.

thers a reason why i wanna blog today.

im sick and tired of arseholes and bitches out ther trying to ruin my relationship with my gf.

u bitches may post in your blog that u hate me and ila being together or wadsoever.

so wad if my gf sees nothing except me?

jealous?(siak uhh nak jealous!*dats wad u bitches wud probably say*)

its bcoz u bitches dun worth a thing. muahahaha!

some bitches even want to slap me sey. scary!! woohoo!(black bitches nowadays)

but reality check. can u even touch me.? haha.

black ass.

and u arseholes staring at me. wad can u orphans do to me? haha.

beat the shit out of me?

if u guys wanna beat me up, make sure i wont be able to stand up.

coz if i do stand up,im gonna beat the shit out of u and ur whole family.

and trust me, u wudnt want ur family involve in this.(they're innocent u see).

So, to all u nicompoops out ther.

ure fcuked. ure nothing. haha

I didn't mention names, but hopefully you knw. [:

(Copy and paste from the black bitch's blog.)

still standing strong,

Firay and ila.

So Low Of Me

2008-10-28T21:09:00.003+08:00

wana noe more about me?
i'll tell you.
=)

im:
DISAPPOINTMENT
USELESS
WORTHLESS
DESPICABLE
UNGRATEFUL
DISGUSTING
EGOISTIC
UNCONTROLLABLE
WEAK
COLD-HEARTED
DOG
WHORE
ORDINARY
DEVIL

im sorie.
but let me just pretend dat im okay.
im hurt, BADLY.
even sumone agreed
on wat i'd say above.
i tot dat sumone see's me in a diff way.
but,
i cried myself to slp ytd.
n i felt numb in the morning.
shivered non-stop.

where is he?
he left. ='(

i'll be gone fer awhile.
i'll update when im much more stronger.

gdbye my sweet frens.

i hate my life now!

2008-10-27T21:52:00.004+08:00

Superhuman - Chris Brown ft. Keri Hilson

i was kinda bored.
so i found chris brown's video.
'superhuman'.
its meant fer you bby.
from the heart.

Chris:
Weak, I have been crying and crying for weeks.
How'd I survive when I can barely speak,barely eat on my knees.

Keri:
But that's the moment you came to me,
I don't know what your love has done to me.
Think im invincible I see through the me I used to be. 

You've changed my whole life,
don't know what you're doing to me with your love.
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me,
a superhuman heart beats in me,
nothing can stop me here with you.

Superhuman..
I feel so superhuman x2

Chris:
Strong, since i've been flying and righting the wrongs.
Feels almost like i've had it all along,
I can see tomorrow.

Keri:
Where every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me.
It's unbeliveble to see how love can set me free.

You've changed my whole life,
don't know what you're doing to me with your love.
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me,
a superhuman heart beats in me, nothing can stop me here with you.

Superhuman..
I feel so superhuman x2

It's not a bird, not a plane,
it's my heart and it's going gone away.
My only weekness is you, only reason is you,
every minute with you
I feel like I can do, anything..
Going,going i'm gone away, in love.

You've changed my whole life,
don't know what you're doing to me with your love.
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me,
a superhuman heart beats in me, nothing can stop me here with you.

Superhuman..

been waiting fer him to rply to my msgs.
its okay. im really used to it.
no worries. im fine.
all i nid to do, is put up a brave front.
fooling everyone dat im okay.
imma strong gal, yes i am.

i duno wat haf gotten into me.
im easily down dis daes.
i dun wish to stay home neither outside.
i duno wat i wan dis daes.
keep forcin myself to go sch.
but i can barely make it.
sch's been addin to my probs.
maybe its betta i keep things to myself.
n cry alone in my bedroom.
my life really take a u-turn.
went back to the 'gloomy' days.

to you, firay

i swear to God, upon the holy Quran.

that my love fer you,

have no limits.

every single thing i did,

i did fer u, fer us.

neva did i regret a single thing.

if loving u was wrong.

i dun eva wanabe rite.

i love u like how water flows.

i love you like how flowers bloom.

i love you like how the sun shines.

i just love you more every single day.

seeing you jam,seeing that smile on ur face.

ouh god, u duno how it brightens my day.

i wish upon a shooting star,

that i cud make you laugh.

like how ur frens usually make u laugh.

the full blast laugh.

the loud laughter.

i wish...

Stressed Out

2008-10-22T20:19:00.003+08:00

Its Been Awhile Since I Updated My Blog.
So, Apologies Pls.
I Was Caught Up Wif Some Probs At Home.
And Some School Projects.

Startin Wif.
18Oct2008
Went Raya-ing Wif Syg & Kompang Frens.
So, I Had To Reach B.B At 10.
I Din Wear Raya Clothes To B.B.
I Changed At Syg's Hs.
So I Had To Reach Dere Early.
I Had To Iron Syg's Clothes Too. =)
BlaBlaBlaBla.
We Went Out Of Da Hs At 12.
Had To Rch Abg Yan's Hs At 12.15 I Guess.
Some Were Dere Already.
Quite A Handful Of Ppl Goin.
So, Guess Wat We Took?
A Big Bus. HaHaHa.
Not Public Transport K.
So BlaBlaBla.
On Dat Particular Day Too,
Syg & I Fought Badly.
Adoii. *Ape Nk Jadi*
BlaBlaBlaBla.
Rchd Hm At 1am.
Thanxs To Syg's Daddy
Fer Sending Me Home.

19Oct2008
Fought Wif Daddy.
Jyeah. Abt Sch Projects.
So, Im Still Angry With Him.
So, Was Bloody Pissed Off.
I Din Went Home.
I Sleptova At Syg's Hs.
Finishd My Project At Dere Too.
Syg Drank On Dat Day Too.
Oh Gosh, I Hate The Smell.
=)

20Oct2008
Normal Sch Day.
Went Home.
Fought Wif Daddy.
AGAIN. Wtf Kn?
Cried My Heart Out,
Alone Inside The Room.
Went To Slp Early.

21Oct2008
Din Went To Sch Today.
Syg Came By.
It's Been Awhile Since We Gt To Cuddle 2getha.
BlaBlaBla.
Quarrel Again.
So Decided Nt To Go Hm Again.
Really Damn Tired Of Dis Stupid Things.
Fortunately, Syg's Ibu Askd To Stop By.
Thinking Dat I Just Quarrel Wif Syg.
I Din Feel Like Goin.
But, Ibu Say Just Come.
So Jyeahh.
Ntah Ape Jadi.
Syg Askd Me To Slpova.
Ibu & Ayah Askd Me Wat Hppd At Hm.
All I Cud Do Was To Cry.
Ayah Say, 'You Can Tell Me Anyting.
Treat Me Like Your Own Papa.'
BlaBlaBlaBla.
So, At Nite Me & Syg Watchd Susuk.
Afta Dat, We Went To Slp.

22Oct2008
Woke Up Early.
So I Can See Syg Off At The Busstop.
I Din Went To Sch Again.
Din Bring My Sch Uni.
HaHaHaHa.
So, Slack At Syg's Hs.
Wif Ibu & Auni.
So Syg Came Bck Hm.
Rest Jap Pastu Siap2.
Send Him To Work.
Den Home Sour Home.

To Syg,
ThankYou Fer Being Dere.
Fer Giving Me Strength To
Survive My Personal Probs.
Thank You Fer Believin In Me.
I Owe My Life To You.
I Love You.
Deeply.
Pls Dun Leave Me.

Monthsary =)

2008-10-13T17:17:00.012+08:00

Happy 4th Monthsary!
ALHAMDULLILAH.

We've made this far.
Squabbles & Obstacles are always dere.
but syg, im proud of you.
Yes, you lahh. =)
im readi den eva to make US work.
ova&ova again.
U always rawk my world!
U are always part of my daily life.
so, dun qns much.
U noe im always inlove wif you.
Yes, inlove and crazy abt you.
still, eva since the first day.
neva eva did it fade.
n it neva will.

BbyPrince,M0shb
I LOVE YOU!
Till Eternity. =)

I live fer him

2008-10-12T11:28:00.006+08:00

Randomly.
All his sweet msgs.

Wednesday,08.10.08
1945hours
Ayg,u btolkan tk tinggalkan i?
i mean like btol2 kan?

Thursday,09.10.08
1224hours
I love u bby. Btol. Cyg. Ily. Btol.
1247hours
I tk ngantok pon. Nk tok kasi u tdo ble?
0131hours
If u thank me fer making tonite special.
Den i guess i'll hv to thank u fer making
my every day special. I love u larling.
Mwahxxx!

Friday,10.10.08
1436hours
Ayg. I nk jmpe u. Tpi i pn tk larat.
Auni demam. I pn nk demam.
I rindu u. I nk mamam o.c.k aje.
Laen tkde selera. I nanak jmpe sesiape.
Cume u jeq. I nak u!!
1506hours
Smakin i syg u, smakin i tkt ngan u.
Tkt hilang u,tkt u tinggalkan i,
tkt u jatuh ke laki laen,
tkt u kluar ngan laki laen.
I tau i bnyk buat salah.
Tk rply ur msg,kluar tk blang,
tk send u gdnyte msg.
Tpi sumpah demi allah yg i tk kluar
ngn pompuan laen, bubual tentang perasaan
dgn pompuan laen.
Psl i cinta kan u aje.
Mungkin u anggap nie sbagai 'just'
one of my sweet msg je ke ape.
tpi tak. I cume nak blang u yg
i btol2 sygkn u.

Saturday,11.10.08
1223hours
Waiting fer u to take my hand
and put arnd ur waist.
Waitng fer ur lips to lean on mine.
Waiting fer ur eyes to stare at mine.
Waiting fer our body to combine as one,
knowing dat our heart and soul already as one.
I love you bbyprincess, i really do.
Gentle kiss,*muacks*

he means alot to me.
he means the world to me.
even paradise cant match to his wonderfulness.
everytime my heart beats.
my heart beats fer him.
my heart beats his name.
now, in my lil world.
he conquers it all.
every lil space in my heart,
is meant fer him.
he might not noe how much i truly loves him.
i dun even noe myself.
its overwhelming, i swear.
he's my past, my present and my future.
he's my every decade and century.
he's my every molecule.
he's my SUPEReverything.
I love HIM very much.

Misunderstandin, I Guess

2008-10-09T09:49:00.002+08:00

before postin dis.
i was bloghoppin.
n i came by dis blog.
a person close to my heart.
when i read the post.
i felt dat its kinda meant fer me.
yes, a bit heartbrkn.
but its the bloggers feelings.
so, i respect every sgl bit of it.

im not sure wthr u nid my eplanation.
but still, here goes.
im stuck at hm.
nowhr else but hm.
i n firay had some misundrstndin.
abt 'frenship'.
we quarelled most of da days.
so apart frm him.
when u said 'tknk susahkn ko'.
it hit me damn bad.
yes, damn bad.
i felt dat im nt needed in ur life.
so i started to shrink in.
so stoop lowly.
but in any case u nided me.
im always here fer you.
im sorie, i am.

dat is my explanation.
yes, it is.
u tc my dear fren. =)

Alhamdullilah

2008-10-05T22:48:00.006+08:00

hey peeps.
now im randomly updating my blog.
i just dun wan my blog to b dead.
so jyeah, here goes.

afta all set backs n wateva shits.
i feel quite complete now.
i really feel at ease.
i dun feel the nid to rush ova matters.
ive learn how to let things go.
and not dwell on it fer long.
ive learnt to fall down hard.
n ive learnt hw to stand up strong.

deres ntg in dis world dat doesnt come with obstacles.
its neva always hapiness dat comes first.
n its neva always happy ending.
but with strong faith and beliefs.
Insya'allah, god will listen to ur every prayer.
i may not be a gd example in religion thingy.
but i truly noe.
dat if u seek HIM, he'll help u in one way or anotha.

now at dis moment.
gg thru life wif the one i truly love.
is absolutely an ultimate blessing.
seeing him smile,
widens the smile on my face.
gettin the hugs frm him,
oh god i feel so protected.
gettin the kisses frm him,
i dun even noe hw to express it.

to love him, is to love his everything.
to love him, is to love his family.
to love him, is to love his frens.
to love him, is to love his wrong doings.
to love him, is to love his every intentions.

his family is my second family.
his family fills in the missing blanks.
his family makes up fer the love ive neva had.
his mum, is my heroin.
the first day of raya, she kissed my cheeks.
dats the first time, i swear.
i felt so loved, so needed.
his daddy, is my third superhero.
he takes care of me.
i mean really care fer me.
his elder bro, his my silence.
but when he speaks.
he'll crack a joke.
'eh ila, besar nye anting2 ko.'
'ble maen bubble'
hahaha.
his younger sista, my laughter.
its so easy talkin to her.
maybe we agree on almost anythin.
his niece, my onli baby.
she's so adorable.
make me smile all day long.
is stubborn most of the tym.
but dat is wat toddlers do.

my first superhero.
is my bbyprince,moshb.
he's the reason why im gg thru life.
he's the reason why im breathing now.
he's the reason why im smillin.
he's the reason why i cry.
he's my every reason.
not even the world's greatest treasure can match to him.
he's my most valuable possession.
i'll lend my shoulder fer him to lean on.
i'll rch out my hand fer him to hold on.
i'll lend my ear fer him to speak to.
n most importantly my dear,
i'll give u my life fer you to depend on.
i'll do wateva it takes to prove to everyone.
dat u are and will be the one fer me.
we've gone thru obstacles together.
we've gone thru hapiness together.
i only nid u to survive.
I Love You So Much.
im ntg without you, i swear.
dun eva go. pls.
ilysm.

Hari Raya Lahh Sehk!

2008-10-03T22:57:00.003+08:00

*Dat was e first day of raya*

*Pink huhh*

*Dat was second day of raya*
*yesh.Black n Orange it was.=)*

third day of raya
i din went out with fam today.
but i went out wif syg.
hehe. *biggrin*
takk. bukan jln raya.
we went out to watch movie.
hahahaha.
waitt. we din use our raya money okay.
syg blanja me usin his pay.
awww. so sweet. =)
i fetchd him from bbdc.
syg had rte isit? i supposed lahh.
so, first we headed to j.e.
but nahh. crite mrepek!.
den we proceed to westmall.
we decided to watch Eagles Eye.
chedebahhh. haha.
Syg was like *takot2*.
padahal not horror. haha.
cuteness lahh syg nie.
yada.yada.
syg had to rysh home.
as his fam wana go out.
so yupp2. i went hm.
BUT. *jeng3*
i met my fam at the basketball court.
n dey say. dey wana go IMM.
bloodyfool.
tau tgu diorg kat sane jek.
waste tambang jek.
daddy wna change starhub cable vision.
to the HD one. wtf!
so me n mum went to do some girlie stuffs.
we went to do some shoppin.
hehe. =)
dat was my day.
long huhh. n tired. =)

First Syawal

2008-10-01T10:52:00.003+08:00

October 1,2008
So today marks the first say of Syawal.
i'm totally exhausted frm house chores.
it was totally a pack week fer me.
i had to do the Fcukin hs chores.
i had to run back to geylang to buy some stuffs.
i had to do the Fcukin brownies fer *nenek*.
unsincere? abit. Gosh i hate herr.
her n my haji bakhil datok.

Im still staring at the comp.
n its alreadi like 1100hours.
haha. yupp2. i had breakfast.
yummy? not really.
wak anah's food really take a u-turn dis yr.
it doesnt taste like old times.
her foor wud really taste damn nice larr.
finger lickin gd i must say.
but now? not really. haha.
e othas said that it was nice.
but nahh. not fer me.
maybe i alreadi develop a fussy tongue.
thnxs to my dearest syg.

talking abt syg.
he's havin high fever fer past two days.
gosh. im worried sick.
ytd, i cabot frm hm.
to see him at his hs.
aiyoohh. realli pity him.
he was alreadi havin fever.
den he had some stomach prob.
so i had to wipe his stomach wif
a cold wet cloth.
he said that it'll be betta.
my hands was alreadi numb.
but fer him, i always willl.
i stroke his hair.
i cant touch him using my palms.
he soon feel aslp.
i had to go hm soon enuff.
so i kissed him gdbye.
i hope he'll be betta.
='(

Aku mcm mls larr nk klua.
smua org blom siap.
so aku pon mls larr.
aku blm mandi agk nie.
hehehe.
syg blm msg aku.
aku risau sal dia.
dia da baek ke blm?
haix.

me: u tdo dr tadi ehk? nari u alek kampong?
him: i dlm krete nie. Sory! Terlupe nak blang.
me: =(
him: Bye ayg. :) i bsok alek.
me: ='(
him: haha! I tk balek lah!
me: Uuuuuu! U uat i nangis lahh.!
him: Hehe. I baru minta maaf pe tady. Nie 1st dosa i kat u lah!
me: haha. i gigit u ble? *bluekk*
him: Nanak! I lari...!!! eeeeeek! U nak gigit!!!!
me: Haha. nanak lari. Alaa. u lari. I ble keja. *bluekk*
me: U. I rindu u. Sob3.
Him: U. I pon rindu u. Sob3.

*he always seem so perfect in my eyes*

what really happened?

2008-09-28T12:03:00.010+08:00

today is short n simple.
I Miss Him Very Much
i swear. ='(

2008-09-21T20:18:00.002+08:00

"I emptied my mind.
N think everything dat we've been thru.
Its true dat ure d one fer me.
Till now, ure still holdin on
to all my shits and craps.
I love u so much.
I'll climb d highest mountain
if ure on top of it, jus to see u.
I'll swim across the largest ocean
if ure on the opp side of mine,
jus to see u, again.
I'll dig the ground even
if ure at the core of the earth,
jus to see u,again,
and again, and again.
I love u. I do.
Till eternity i'll wait,
fer u to see me and
say dat u miss me.
Jus like ive been wantin to say
to u rite now.
'Darling, i miss you' "

Aint he sweet or wat.
dats wat he msg me
on 200902
at 0414hours.
hahaha.
sahur tym sehk.
*aku cair sial*

Bby, Ure all i eva nided.

I LOVE YOU!

2008-09-19T21:39:00.002+08:00

Sorie ive nt been updatin lately.
Kinda busy and seem too lazy to update.
i tink i shud update once in a week.
so dat my bloody post wont be short.
hahh. wtf ila.

*so i kinda ferget wat i did dis week*

17Sep2008
Bby came my hs first.
Its been awhile he din stop by.
so jyeah.
TAPIKAN. Bby dtg uma tak mandi.
hahaha. =)
tkpe. Bby TETAP HOT di mataku.
he had a short nap before we went out.
Bby and geng had jammin.
So jyeah. we proceed to J.E.
to meet *jungle* & *legend*
*legend* brought along his guitar.
so did bby.
met ahmad @ bugis.
wat a coincidence.
we all wore the same shirt.
hahaha. cuteness.
so we went inside the jammin room.
i listen to dem playing beautiful lie.
by 30 seconds from mars.
and sure it was beautiful.
hee. =)
i had ntg to do.
so i snap some pics.
but its all in bby's hp.
sorie okay?

this week
ive been busy with bby.
i send him to werk.
or even fetch him from werk.
tues i sent him to werk.
so jyeah.
dats the case. =)
thurs i fecthd him cos he ends at 9.
we took 106 from esp.
and headed to b.b
stop at caltex.
he said i shud take e bus frem dere.
but i say no.
'i fecthd u frm werk.
so i wana send u till ur void deck.'
by the time i took 189 to inter.
it was like 2330.
haha. so i had to rush home.
mum n dad was naggin alreadi.
aiyohhh.

today
i sent him to werk again.
i put aside all my tiredness.
frem cleanin the hs.
just to sent him. hee.
so i rchd his hs ard 2plus.
i assume.
ibu open the door.
haha. auni just finishd bathin.
her hair is still wet.
maya was dere too.
she n abg farhanwas watchn tv.
ibu was makin pineapple tarts.
i had to lyn auni n bby.
putri went religious class.
so jyeah.
bby was bad. cos he playd e psp.
n neva lyn me.
haha. so jyeah i sulk.
auni was like 'ini.ini.ini'
hahaha. typical of her.
she on e mp3.
n was like shakin her head.
to the rhytm of the song.
haha. cuteness.
ard 1630 bby went to shower.
and ibu was still makin the kuihs.
yupp2. dats it. =)

To Bby!
i told u this just nw.
i wna say it again.
i'll put aside all my tiredness.
just to see u wif my bare eyes.
watchin u smile, eases away everythin.
every sgl pain.
only u haf e power to heal
anythin dats inside of me.
emotionally or even physically.
i nid u to love me wholeheartedly.
so dat it gives my strength to live on.
i nid u so bad.
dat i'll sacrifice anythin i
see unworthy of.
ilysm bby. i realli do.
i'll say it ova n ova again if u want to.
ilsym. mwuahx!

2008-09-14T14:48:00.003+08:00

Usin ain's lappy and updating.

while waiting to make the muffin.

its betta i update.

fasting drenched all m energy kepe.

so jyeah.

ytd was a long day.

i had to 'cat' ain's room.

light green isit?

haha.

well. i had to do the first coat.

so jyeah. ali the finishing.

and i had to use the small brush.

WTH!!. but lucky i finished it on tym.

Ytd too was our 3rd monthsary.

so jyeah. Im glad.

but we had some probs ytd.

but all ego put aside.

n break fast @ his house.

i stayed @ his house till 9+.

and went home coz i was too tired.

Dear BbyPrince.M0shb

I Love You.

Hapi 3rd Monthsary.

Yet again. Haha.

Well. Im Proud of u You.

Im proud of us.

dat we can make 'US' work.

n i know.

if we can stay dis way till eternity.

i believe dat we can make it.

till our last counting breathe.

So Bby, Dun Gif Up On Me n On Us.

I always believe dat u can make it.

I Love You With My Whole Heart.

N will always till ETERNITY.

*no offence*

but to those who doesnt like us to be together.

i just dun gif a damn.
i'll stand up fer him.
and fer our love too.

coz its my life.

say wateva u want.

do wateva u want.

my love towards him.

will always remain the same.

so fuck you.

fuck your life.

I Love Him n Dats It.

No Buts.

2008-09-09T09:57:00.003+08:00

the minute i woke up today.
all i cud do was to tink abt u.
ntg seem more impt to me ryte now.
then u, BbyPrince.MOshb.
last nite seem to be the most memorable day.
i swear, im grateful.
to be honest.im speechless ryte now.
i dun reali noe wat to say.
let my heart speak to urs.
and bby, without you.
my life feel so incomplete.

1730hours
me: Bby. I miss u.
me: Im waiting 4 u k bby.
Even 4 eternity. Mwuahx. =)
him: Aww. Itu sweet bangat si.
Gue cinta sama kamu dong.!
me: Saya rindu kamu. Saya nak hug kamu.
Tapi bsk kamu puasa. Alaa. Tapi tkpe.
Saya akan tetap menunggu! =)
him: Alaaa. Kamu bleh hug saye bile2 cinta.
Kamu kan biniku. Puasa saya tak batal.
Btw, saya da dlm kereta tau.
me: Okay sayangku. Btw. Syg.
U make me blush. Tak bedek!
him: Hehe. Ayg. I feel good tonight.
U noe wads best bout tonight?
me: Ape dia syg?
him: Well :)
"the best thang bout tonight is that..
we're not fighting"
me: Bby, can we stop time n stare into each
othas eyes? Coz all i wana do is gif all my
love to u. N all i wana do is reach ur hand
and neva let go. Ily Bby.

0442hours.
him: Ayg.....
me: Yes?
him: I Love You
me: I love u too bby. Da sahur?
g tdo ok? rest. nant exam.
him: ok sayang.

I LOVE YOU, BBY!

2008-09-04T15:37:00.009+08:00

i miss gdmorning kisses.
i miss gdmorning hugs.
i miss holding ur hands.
i miss hugging ur hand.
i miss kissing ur fingers.
i miss kissing ur hand.
i miss staring at ur eyes.
i miss watching u eat.
i miss watchin u sleep.
i miss kissing ur shoulders.
i miss going to sch with u.
i miss waking up early to meet u.
i miss slpn late just to talk with u.
i miss ur smile.
i miss ur laughter.
i miss ur stupid faces.
i miss u lip-sing songs.
i miss u strumming ur guitar.
i miss u playing the piano.
i miss u singing to me.
i miss stealing kisses when ure aslp.
i miss bathing wif u.
i miss u shouting in the bathroom.
i miss slping with u
i miss bullying u.
i miss love session with you.
i miss hugging u from behind.
i miss leaning on ur shoulders.
i miss leaning on ur chest.
i miss u kissing my forehead.
i miss u kissing my neck.
i miss u sending me love smses.
i miss u visiting me when im sick.
i miss u givin me chocs when im @ e hosp bed.
i miss brushing ur hair.
i miss u wearing my clothes.
i miss wearing ur clothes.
i miss swinging hands with u.
i miss sitting in the bus with u.
i miss standing in the mrt with u.
i miss u rubbing my stomach.
i miss taking pic using ur hp.
i miss ironing ur swensen shirt.
i miss having lunch with u.
i miss slackin with u.
i miss watchin u smoke.
i miss u carry me.
i miss u piggy-back me.
i miss u grinning widely.
i miss sitting on ur lap.
i miss chatting wif u @ msn.
i miss outings with u.
i miss eating ljs with u.
i miss grill 2.
hehehh.

fer gdness sake.
I MISS YOU!
=)

13.06.08

2008-09-01T13:17:00.004+08:00

the last post was from bby.
now, its my turn to express my feelings.
after prayin hard.
i feel lighthearted now.
i feel free from emotions ruining my life n ours.
so now its the perfect time to let everything out.

ive been sucky at rships.
either im leaving dem or dey leaving me.
even if it was a long term rship.
it still doesnt last.
yesh. it was very heartbreaking.
but im used to standing up and moving on.
ive neva love anione, like im loving sumone today.
ive neva care fer anione, like im caring fer sumone today.
ive neva think of anione, like im tinking of sumone today.
ive neva pray hard to god fer anione, like im praying fer sumone today.

all may think dat it was puppy love.
but we proved dat it was true love.
all may think dat we werent gona make it.
but we proved dat we did.
n will prove dat we will in the future.

it hpns when we were out slacking @ ms.
he just came bck from jb.
we all waited fer him to arrive.
altho it was late. but my heart says wait fer him.
so yeah. went home wif him and gf.
i like had to flirt wif him.
so i askd ezah fer his no.
smsed him fer like till 3am.
nxtwk i askd him out.
grew fond of him.
feelings started to get deeper.
had always been wishing on a star to be his.
tings went on perfectly wonderful fer the first month.
it started to take a u-turn during the second month.
shit hpns. hearts got broken.
tings started to stray. started to move on.
it may seem easy. but it was damn hard.
i was just putting up a brave front.
but its killing inside.
its tearing my heart vigorously.
until i decided to take away my life.
but god wants to prove to u dat i truly love u.
he din let me die. yet he hospitalized me.
but by den. i gave up on everyting.
every sgl promise. every sgl oath.
maybe its our fate to be togetha.
dat u came back.
oh god, im thankful.
we were the way we used to be.
affectionate, romantic and inlove.
BUT. probs occur.
fites btwn frens fer choosing u.
but i just dun care.
i went to u.
fer attention, fer affection and fer everything else.

dear firay,
i gave my heart to u.
fer u to treasure it.
u gave ur heart to me.
fer me to treasure it.
ive neva been inlove with someone this strong.
i scarifice my time, my energy.
just to be with u.
n yes, it is always wonderful.
and will always do.
i can feel ur love towards me.
and i appreciate every sgl ting u did fer me.
i nid u the way u nid me.
i want u the way u want me.
i love u the way u love me.
my love fer u cant compare to the smallest ting i did fer u.
bby, only u haf the key to my heart.
only u.

i love you so much.

till eternity.

2008-09-01T01:00:00.008+08:00

Nope. not ila here. bt firay.

blogging is supposed to make u feel betta afta u post sumthing ryte.?

its to let out ur feelings when u aint got a listening ear ryte?

instead of bottling everythang up in ur heart?

dats wad i'm trying to do. making myself feel betta, letting everythang in my heart out.

ok. these 3 werds may be simple, common, plain & always on the use.

"I LOVE YOU".

bt weneva i say dis 3 werds to u ila, deep emotions and feelings are tied onto these 3 werds.

maybe not tied on, i PREFER the werd embedded on.

and everytime i say these 3 werds to u ila, i wanna make sure it doesnt fly to ur ears.

instead,i want these werds to pierce thru ur body, and try its best to reach out fer the heart.

afta the hospital incident. i realised dat ure the one fer me.

not fer today. nor tomorrow. bt till my life is thru.

im sick & tired of switching gfs.

just wen im already used to being wif 1 gerl. the gerl leave me. or maybe the other way round.

den...here i go again. finding the right one fer me all over again.

and again trying my very best to adapt to this gerls's ways.

why cant i jus stick to u ila. can i? pretty pls? :'(

and also afta the hospital incident, u noe we didnt squabble much.

bt as days pass by,we trying our very best to find fault wif each other.

and if we do quarrel, it'll be a big one.

i dun want dis anymore.

i only want hepiness.

so wad if GOD gives us lots of obstacles and hurdles?

i want us to overcome everyone of it,SMILING!

*no offence*

i dun care if the whole werld doesnt like me and u together.

i will still reach out my hand fer u. ferever.& always.

i seek ur fergiveness to every mistakes i ever made.

u dun have to seek my fergiveness, as ive been always fergiving u, fer every mistake u ever made. be it a small one or a major mistake. ive always been fergiving u.

now,i wanna seek hepiness in dis relationship of ours.

not urs, not mine, bt ours!

im still reaching out my hand.

waiting fer u to reach out fer my hand, my heart, & my soul.

*werds in brackets are in translation*

Cygku,kharmila,aku ingin bersama mu sepanjang umur ku.

(My love,kharmila,i wish to be wif u till eternity.)

kerna kau adalah hatiku.

kau adalah jiwaku.

kau adalah menawanku.

(coz ure my heart.

ure my soul.

ure my beautiful.)

now, im trying again.

trying to get my werds to pierce thru her body and reach fer the heart.

to kharmila.

"i love u"

from firay.

23August2008

2008-08-24T10:22:00.002+08:00

ytd woke him up at 9am. ooh. his voice was damn sexy. haha. stop it ehk ila.*bluekk*. so jyeah. i went to do some house chores first. had my breakfast wif mum. n i nid to go bath and n get out of the house. so jyeah. finish doin wateva shitts and left hs ard 1130. i nid to go abby's hs and take my shoes. coz i'll be wearing it. haha. stupid. yadaa2. we left her hs ard 1 liddat. coz she tot of gg werk interview. but atlast tak jadi. so we went bugis. jalan mcm no one's business. haha. stupid us. n my mouth keep chewing and shewing on stuff. doesnt wana stop. aiyohh. so jyeah. by 4 i went off bcoz i nid to fecth syg from werk. i ask him accompany me go buy mum's bdae present. haha. i waited dere since 0430. so jyeah. but he went out of werk ard 0530. haha. wth. but nvm. i'll wait even fer eternity. i sat outside his werkplc btwn swensen and cafe cartel. siallah. dok pon jadi salah. matreps walk past n say 'aik, dr tadi sorg jek'. menyebok plak. aiseybedahh. so jyeah. when hubby went out of werk with his singlet and jeans, we went straight to precious thots. haha. ehh no, hubby had to go atm and withdraw money. haha. den he was like 'nak cing2.' hahaha. and ytd was like our 'horny' day. kwang3. so we nonstop talking about uncensored things. haha. and when we like had to go toilet. he wud kip dragging me to the male's toilet. haha. wtf. we really had no sense of direction ytd. atlast we sat sown at ljs outside cityhall. appy and nat came by and join us. so now its the 4 of us. haha. so we tot of watching the fireworks. bt i suddenly dun feel like watching. ntahlar ehk. moody gaknye. so we waited and waited. n the bloody emcee was like fucking irritating. we were about to go off. when suddenly appy n nat say wait awhile more. n jyeah, lucky the fireworks started. or hubby and i wud be pissed off alreadi. haha. so jyeah. afta the fireworks. we left quickly cause was too damn tired. and we dun wanna board the pack mrt. haha.

utk kamu, FIRAY
ur werds to bro.james touched me.
seriously, i swear.
trust me. memories are very hard to 4get.
but soon it'll fade away.
ive been in ur place.
n im sure othas haf too.
its neva wrong to peek at the past.
but dwelling on it is NOT a MUST.
so each tym, when u'll talk abt her.
i'll smile and keep quiet.
coz i respect you.
she used to be ur most loved one.
but u noe wat syg.
i wana BE MUMMY'S FAV GAL now.
i'll do wateva it takes.
*bluekk*
leave you?
neva in my lifetym.
i love you too much.
i'll do wateva it takes to make us go far.
even if the othas may not like u.
i just dun give a damn.
coz ure my love n will always be.
eva if i were to go away n neva come back.
atleast ive known a great person like you.
so bby, i love u.
i'll neva leave.
ure my BbyPrince,Moshb. =)

2008-08-22T22:14:00.002+08:00

i miss my bestfren.
i admit we're strayin.
im sorie if i dun spend quality time together with ya.
things just doesnt seem to werk now.
afta firay, now its ezah.
everyone seem to be leaving me one afta anotha.
n now i tend to gif tings up easily.
i'll let everyting go.
and if u really wna leave me too.
den i'll be so so so down.
i dun really tok to my frens animore in sch.
n i dun go sch much often now.
u really got it wrong when u say frens surrounding me.
when its actually frens leaving me.
dis post is not about sympathizing me.
i just wna let it out to u.
im sorie gf. i am. =(

2008-08-21T13:34:00.002+08:00

im tired of this stupid thing ok.
im ova and done with.
i can land in the hospital again.
its true, i swear.
but its just the matter of i want it or not.
TO TELL THE TRUTH.
YES, I WAS THINKING ABT KILLING MYSELF.

my intuition is.
everyone is BLAMING me fer choosing HIM ova everyone else.
for goodness sake.
my PRIORITY was to get him back.
why? bcoz he IS & WILL be my half soul.
everyone noes dat, I LOVE HIM WHOLEHEARTEDLY.
so wats the problm now?
dat im STUPID to haf him back in my life.
ive neva eva regretted any decisions i made.
partly because its experience and because i followed my heart.
try stepping in my shoes and be ME.
wat wud u guys do?
dun come and tell me u guys wun do wat i did.
yes, i admitted dat i did some silly stuffs.
why? because him leaving me means im leaving the world.

FRENS?
i tot frens wud undrstnd frens.
i tot frens wud support each otha.
i tot frens wud be dere fer every UPS & DOWNS.
n seriously, i tot frens wud be happi fer each otha.

p.s hope i wun get affected? wrong sentence.
im affected by every sgl thing ok.
why? it involves me, him and everyone else.
my-boyfriend-is-my-all.
try loving someone wholeheartedly.
and u'll noe wat im gg thru.

THREE things i really NID in life:
1. FAMILY.
2.HIM.
3.FRIENDS.

n i seriously noe that u guys nid this 3 things too.
why am i blogging this?
i wan u guys to noe wats inside my heart.
n ntg else.
hahh. who am i kidding.
u guys undrstndng me? that is fer u guys to ans.

Hospitalize Ayy!

2008-08-20T20:36:00.004+08:00

18August2008-19August2008
Let me start the story.
on how i got landed @ NUH.
wahahaha. Funny.

1930 hours.
took the stupid tablets from the kitchen.
and even the cough mixture.
n guess wat. even the knife.
i took 10 of it on sunday.
so i was quite weak alreadi.
took anotha 6 i assume. or more.
den took the cough mixture.
i sat down on the floor quitely.
weeping&weeping&weeping.
sddnly, my legs went numb.
i cudnt feel a thing.

2045
smsed dad.
"daddy, come inside my room.
call the ambulance too.
i cant feel my legs.
my hands will soon be numb too.
i feel like dying.
come quick. im scared"
still holding on to the knife.
killing myself?
not really. just wana cut myself open.
but den, was too scared to die.
hahahaha. WTF ila.
daddy picked me up and lie me dwn on my bed.
called the ambulance.

2105
ambulance came.
covered my nose with the oxygen mask.
cause i cant breathe.
daddy picked me up again.
and put me on the chair/stretcher.
the 'guys' pushed me to the ambulance.

2130
rchd NUH. went straight to the emergency ward.
had to lie down on the bed.
so they went to do some blood test.
first, was fucking painful.
i was about to faint.
second, save me from fainting.
haha. stupid rite.
then they put two bags of fluid in me.
i tink to wash up the dose.
i had to go toilet.
but no slippa.
so had to walk bare feet.
luckily it was walking distance.

0700
ONLY NOW I GET WARDED.
OMA. lambat aper.
siallah. aku da tak cukup tido.
puki nye nyonya memekak.
nak balek lah ape lah.
bodoh pehh cinonek.

1715
discharged. wee. !
went to eat wif syg and fam.
=)

utk kamu, FIRAY!
thanku fer waiting till 3am with ur fam.
it may be a small thing to you.
but its a VERY big deal to me.
now i truly hope u noe how much u mean to me.
i swear, i love u with all my heart.

"Ayg. Im stil here. Waiting fer u.
It hurts me to noe dat u did dis. why?
I noe u love me. Bt dun do dis.
It hurts me too. I love u sey.
I'll wait.
Ure tears arent precious.
Bt u are ayg.
U are my everyting. U are.
I sumpah. I swear.
I'll neva leave u again. Ok ayg.
Fer now u rest ok bby princess.
Close ur eyes, think bout wad we'e been thru.
Sleep with a smile. I Love You."

"Ayg, i brought my jacket along tau.
Wished dat i cud pass it to u.
Atleast my soul is ther to look afta u."

utk kamu, KWN2ku
thanku fer suprising me.
thanku fer the bear and the balloon.
OMA. im bloody touched.
seriously, i swear.

let me say dis.
wateva hpns btwn me & him.
i stil do love him with my WHOLE heart.
i swear. it has neva changed.
u may blame him. u may talk bad about him.
bt all i wna say is.
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
u may think im a fool.
but wat my heart nid is HIM.
without him i fall.
isnt it tru?
he left me. whr did i land in?
so i reali nid him.
now he's by my side.
i'll treasure him till my last counting breathe.
ive always forgiven him.
u guys shud too.
because w/o him.
dere will neva be a smile on my face.
try taking him away.
and i'll change.
i swear.
try thinkin it ova. =)

2008-08-18T15:56:00.002+08:00

today marks the day of our promise.
the promise we'll fulfill years down the road.
the promise that make us much more stronger ppl.
the promise that tie us together.

Although we are not together now.
I'll wait fer the day that we will be.
I'll wait fer the day that ure mine fereva.
I'll wait fer the day that the world is in our hands.

I'll post this, so that everyone will be our witness.

Him.

"Ive made up my mind. i wanna continue my music career. i wanna date gals. I dun wanna settle down yet. Good news is, i'll keep my every promise. EVERYONE OF IT. including the one i wrote at the blk. I'll meet u in years to come. I dun mind if ure gonna hv a relationship. Bt u promise me the same thing to0. Jus come bck to me wen i finish my ns. I love u. Last gentle kiss, muackz. =)"

Me.
"I will kip dat promise. I'll come 2 u afta ur ns. I'll mit u @ e blk we wrote our oath. If ure nt dere. Dn it'll b e end. Ur name will always b inside my heart. Just promise me u'll be dere?"

Him.
"I promise"

Everyone.
Be my witness.
Be the witness of our love.
Be the witness of our oath.

To Firay-La.
i nid to let u go now physically.
but not mentally.
i still nid u. as a fren.
to guide me. to become a betta person.
i'll love u frm afar.
ure my first and last star.
i'll wait fer u. i swear. =)

2008-08-12T20:48:00.002+08:00

Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade

each tym i hear this song on my mp3.
i'll always rmbr u.
i rmbred the tym we shared.
the memories to hard to 4get.
today i cried like ive neva cried b4.
my tears are not dat precious animore.
so is my life. =(
Do u feel Happy ryte now. After hurting me dis much.?
even afta all dat. i still do love u.
why? lebih afdal nye tnye ALLAH.
if losing u is the punishment fer all my sins.
den ALLAH really did a gd job.
bcoz losing u, is like losing my life.
do u know what im feeling ryte nw?
is to jump from the blk we wrote our name.
'Will u marry me?', 'Promise?'
Fs is a name to rmbr.
i will. bcoz u changed me so much.
thnku.
i tot i'll be happier w/o u, hahh.
guess im wrong. ='(
the date to watch HSM3 togetha.
will neva come true. haix.
some ppl will undrstnd wat im gg tru. some dun.
when u kneel dwn just now.
i wished i cud hug u.
i wished i cud comfort u.
its too late, aint it.
just let me hug u fer the last tym.
please. den i'll be @ peace.
='(
im depressed. yes i am.
i just nid u so badly. i do.

2008-08-10T13:16:00.003+08:00

Syg, I miss u. Haix.
No more strings attached.
Its hard. Its very hard. I swear.
Every Hour, Every Min, Every sec.
Its always u.
Dere's no one dat can replace u rite now.
I still do love u with all my heart.
neva it fades. neva will.
'true loves only come once'.
i'll rmbr dat sentence fereva.
bcoz ure my true love. yes u are.

im disappointed in myself.
im the one who shud wipe ur tears.
im the one who shud be dere.
im the one who shudnt leave u.
in the one who promised dat i'll neva change.
i regretted in all the decision i made.

I'm missing u so much.
when i slp, i'll think of u.
when im awake, i'll think of u.
when im eatin, i'll think of u.
when im out wif my frens, its always u im thinkin abt.
every moment i'll wait fer ur msgs.
but to no avail.
it seems dat uve really fergotten abt me.
when u rply to my msgs.
even if its one sentence.
i'll be so happy. so very happy.
haix. im sorry.

im holdin back my tears.
i promised myself not to cry.
i promised myself to accept the way things are.
even if i feel so lost ryte now.
i'll pray dat u'll find a way betta gal den me.
ure always a star in my eyes.
ure the first and the last.
Bby, i always love u.
even if i had to let u go unwillingly.
='(

i wished dat u'll be by my side, when i open my eyes.
i wished dat u'll be under my block, when im gg dwn.
i wished dat u'll hug me, when im supercold.
i wished dat u'll kiss my forehead time and again.
i wished u'll hold my hand and neva let it go.
i wished dat ure mine always and foreva.
but..

so over you.

2008-08-07T20:34:00.002+08:00

guess wat. its 7AUGUST2008.
7 keper bang. guess ure ryte.
hahaha.
well. its not worth cryin ova u.
its stupid. jyeahhh.
well. Muhammad Firdaus Bin Sadali.
pls, stop all ur swittalks with otha gals.
no use sayin them when u cant uphold it.
haha. i pity you.
u just let gals look down on u.
n yeah. im lookin down on u soo badd.
im sorry.
but u aint worth to be in my heart animore.
if ure seeking my attn.
u dun nid to hurt my heart.
MY FRENS SAYS,
'change for the sake of myself, dun change for you'.
guess dey are super ryte.
you shud love me fer who i am.
not fer what u wan me to be.
yes. it will be hard forgettin u.
but im willing to try.
thnxs fer all the memories.
thnxs fer all the pain.
uve make me into a stronger gal.
guess, i'll be much more happier w/o u.
=)

2008-08-01T10:11:00.002+08:00

Bby, 31 July was a lesson to me. How hard i try to let u go. i just cant.
I hope now you noe how much you mean to me.
all those bruises i will bear just to haf u by my side.
dere's no more love between us animore syg.
My small heart says, 'stay on a lil longer, n it'll be betta'.
Firay i used to noe, said dat i shud listen to my heart n not my head.
so yeah, i followed. not noeing what the outcome will be like.
i will pray hard, dat it'll get betta.
for now, i'll bear ur temper, ur mood swings.
i will do dis, for the sake of our love. n i swear.
i will neva let u go. i dun wan u to suffer alone.
my frens will sure misunderstand. but my love for u stand so strong.
i noe they tink i might be fool in wantng u back.
but syg, YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE I LOVE.
like wat i said to them. ure my smile. ure my laughter. ure my sorrow.
but most imptly syg, ure my everythng.
we go thru alot. n we dun deserve anithing else den us.
u went thru alot just to get me.
i went thru alot emotionally to get u.
its not worth it just to let us go just like dat.
we might just be gg to 2 months. but the love we share, is more than dat.
feelings for u will neva fade.

Syg, ini utk engkau

Senyuman mu, sayang
Kenangkan manis bibirmu
Nada suara mu, sayang
Mengenangkan kata indah mu
Pandangan mu, sayang
Kenangku kilauan matamu
Kau buatku, sayang
Gila mengingati dirimu

Jangan engkau ragu
Kita kan bertemu lagi
Seperti indahnya mentari
Kembali menyinari pagi

Kaulah satu, aku rindu
Hanya itu yang harus kau tahu
Apa yang tersirat di isi hatiku
Aku tak malu, untuk mengaku
Rasa rinduku kepadamu
Biar kau tahu kejujuran hatiku
Keikhlasan dariku...

Kaulah satu, aku rindu
Hanya itu yang harus kau tahu
Apa yang tersirat di isi hatiku
Aku tak malu untuk mengaku
Rasa rinduku kepadamu
Biar kau tahu kejujuran hatiku

Kaulah satu, aku rindu
Hanya itu yang harus kau tahu
Apa yang tersirat di isi hatiku
Ku tak malu, untuk mengaku
Rasa rinduku kepadamu
Biar kau tahu kejujuran hatiku

Keikhlasan dariku...

2008-07-31T13:45:00.003+08:00

pouring my heart ryte now.
all u cud see now is the little mistakes i do.
no doubt ryte now im cryin.
hell yeah. im crushed.
me to be blame in everything dat hpn in our rship.
you wna know whats gg tru in my heart.
now i confess.
i FUCKINGLY love u with all my heart,
when i msged u since morning. u din rply.
all i cud say in my little heart.
he's disappointed in me. he's disappointed in th elove dat i gave him.
n i gave all my effort in msgin u. i throw away all my ego. just to let u noe dat i do love u. but i feel foolish dat u din rply my msgs.
ive been keeping things to myself. yes i do.
beybehs is all ard i noe.
but i feel im a burden. to them.
and to you.
i noe havin me is a burden n a swear.
i love u too much dat i cant let go.
a few weeks back. i swear i dun feel the love animore.
n i swear i feel its fading.
but i still hang by the hope dat its gonna be betta.
maybe hope isnt by my sde.
maybe im letting go now.
of every probs im havin.
as days goes by, im gettin weaker.
the smile on my face, fadin away.
u tc of urself.
haf the greatest week possible b4 9 aug.

2008-07-31T13:21:00.002+08:00

31 July 2008.
so yeah. i din went to sch today.
rotting @ home was all i cud do.
awhile more i nid to go grab mc & go to work.
ahh. pathethic day i cud haf.
ive been slackin with studies.
fuck me all i cud say.
if i dun pass my exams.
i'll be SUPERdead meat.
hahaha.
now i duno wat im typin.
yadaa. yadaa.
whudeva shits.
met eza ytd as ain cudnt make it.
i helped her with her OFA projects.
yadaa. yadaa.
met eza n keys @ the train.
i went to the wrong door i guess.
i heard keys laugh her ass out from afar.
wth. nvm. she's liddat.
hahaha.
laugh my ass off with them.
alight @ tamp.
keys nid to go stadium.
watch soccer.
cheh3. soccer gal sehk.
nak join ble?
hahah. =)
rchd eza plc ard 0815 liddat.
stayed her hs until 1030.
n i rchd my hs ard 12.
hahaha.
so basically dats why i neva go sch today.

p.s. its breaking apart i swear. =(
tc switheart. im heartbroken.
with me. with you. n with us.

2008-07-29T09:11:00.000+08:00

as dated, today is the 29th of July.
the day is drawin nearer.
next week it is. i cant hold on much longer.
can i break down n cry.
but the thing is, i got no shoulder to lean on ryte now.
now, im on my own. but ryte now i need someone.
he said that im a strong gal.
but no, im just puttin up a brave front.
for goodness sake, i cant hold on to it!!
a lot of 'what if's' stuck on my head.
i cant take it animore.
please. im begging you.
dun go. i nid you in my life.
negativity. negativity.m negativity.
is dis the punishment for all my sins?
please. i beg you god.
dun take him away from me.
he's the only one i got ryte now.
he's my every breathe.
if you take him away from me.
i'll die.
i cant let go of him. i must not.
the memories. the love. and him.
is the most valuable thing in my life.
oh my god!.
no one noes what im gg tru ryte now.
argh. i hate myself ryte now.
ive got a week left to gif my all to him.
n i truly hope its enuf for him.
i hope its enuf to gif him courage.
i hope its enuf to gif him strength.
i hope its enuf to gif him the belief.
n i truly hope its enuf to gif him hope.
im holding back my tears. reali holdin back.
im keepin it from everyone.
i'll soon breakdown.
but i duno when.
Syg, all i could say ryte now is.
I Love You With All My Heart.
Even If Its Not Enuf For You.
I Just Wana Say Dat.
I Truly Love You.
Syg. I Swear.
Please Dun Go!. =(

2008-07-24T09:46:00.002+08:00

aku nak rindu ko bole?

aku nak peluk ko bole?

aku nak cium ko bole?

aku rindu luang masa aku ngn ko.

aku rindu segalenye tentang diri ko.

aku nak kite seperti dulu.

jgn bruba sygku.

krane ko larr penyeri idopku. =)

aku syg ko.

sepenuh atiku!

aku tak bohong.

jgnlah engkau pergi dariku.

aku syg padamu!

2008-07-15T21:02:00.003+08:00

dear my super adorable galfrens,
im greatful dat i gotta gffs like u guys. i truly appreciate ur every dedication n affection towards me. thank you fer bein understandin towards me. n im sorie dat im gona leave u guys fer awhile ryte nw. ive got a promise to make. n dat is to make the love of my life hapi. n im not willing to let him go just like dat. i wan him to be the happiest guy in the world. i wan him to feel the love im havin fer him ryte now. i wan him to haf everything before he go. n ryte now im willing to do anything fer him. n u guys noe me well enuff. dat i neva treat anione like this b4. he's the first n the last dat i love. no one else. n i change alot. to be a betta gf. do i? maybe not enuff fer him. but im willing to try more. ive neva tok to my bf this nice before. ive neva feel dis secure before. n surely ive neva love anione like dis before. n yes, he change my life. to a beautiful one. altho dere's alot of fites. but i noe. its just the best fer our rship. we just wan the best fer our rship. but when things dun go our way. even the smallest things make us go chaotic. n im super glad u guys are dere fer me.even when im leavin u guys fer awhile. ntg in dis world can desribe how meaningful u guys are to me. thak you. u guys are loved. thnxs fer the msgs y'all.

dear the love of my life,
i wana be the umbrella when its rainin.
i wana be the shade when its striking hot.
i wana be the torch when its dark.
i wana be the pillow when ure sleepin.
i wana be the the lyrics in ur song.
i wana be the guitar ure strumming on.
i wana be the clothes ure wearin.
i wana be the boxers u always go to slp wif.
i wana be the towel u always wipe with.
n most importantly.
i wana be ure everything. =)

Mixed feelings

2008-07-13T09:04:00.001+08:00

as dated, its 13 July 2008. before i start this post. i just wna wish syg a hapi one month togetha. im grateful dat we're still togetha. bcoz i nid u so much. feelings fer u just get stronger each day. i swear. no one, not even [insert name] can tear us apart. i noe we believe in each otha. n im sure we can go far. i really appreciate fer everythin u did fer me. n even the most expensive things in the world cant replace it. fer the past few weeks, we've not been spending tym wif each otha, due to work n stuff. but i noe u are making an effort to still hold on. haix. we've been misundertandin each otha quite lately. maybe we just nid each otha so much dat even the slightest thing make us go chaotic. i love you. i do. stronger den wat u eva tink. as times goes by, im still hanging on the hope that ure gona be by my side till eternity. sometimes i do feel foolish. i woke up now finding those three msges from u unbearable. n how could u keep the most impt thing from me. am i not impt enuff to know syg? n i duno whtr i shld gif up on hope. high expectations to be wif u till eternity were made long ago. maybe this is how life goes. taking away the one we love. im not strong enuff fer that syg. now afta awhile, tears dripping. i cant hold on to it nimore. i cant bear to see u go. trust me syg. im the only one that noes this matter. i cant hold on to it alone. yes, ur frens need not noe now. but, they're stil ure frens syg. time fly so fast, that it ticks away life. if eva u go, u said dat u'll be in peace noeing dat i love u. but i wont be, noeing dat u're gone from my side. without u, everything seems to fall. ure the pillar, ure the spine of my every breathe. without u, i'll be sumone u neva knew. ure my smile, ure my laughter. without u, all that is left is sorrow. still hanging by the thread ryte now. let me belive dat u will neva go. n dats impossible i noe. letting go of everything, should i? let this matter , we keep to ourself. let me suffer alone ok syg. i love u. i do. n nothing can replace dat. i swear. tc syg. tc of urself.! n no more ciggies. pls. im beggin u. haix. =(

jealousy aint gd!

2008-07-11T21:22:00.005+08:00

sch has been a drag. coz i spend most of my time working.
i nid to concentrate on sch more larr sehk.
din went to sch since ytd bcoz i was supersick.
i had to go dentist too just nw.
due to my stupid wisdom tooth.
arrgghh. saket benarr sehkk.
i just wna say thank you to my dearest syg fer being dere fer me!.

today was super down fer me. fought wif syg.
i din noe wat came up. he said he was super down too.
i met him at 204 at clementi.
the fighting started dere.
from wat i know, we neva spoke a thing. haix.
we fought n fought until. i finally walked off.
i cant take it animore. the fights, the arguements, the tears.
no more please. haixx.
i walked quickly to the platform. to avoid anymore squabbles.
but yes, syg ran afta me.
i truly appreciate it. i cant let him go. do i? haix.
i hugged him so tightly in the train.
neva eva i wna let him go. haix.
after i send him to work. i walked slowly.
thinking wat i did wrong just now.
went straight to bugis. to meet abby.
afta awhile i got a msg from him.
n i gotta noe he fought wif **** bcoz of i duno wat.
what the hell is goin on here? whats wrong wif her?

To You [insert name] ,
please larr [insert name] , we neva interfere wif your life nimore.
dun interfere ours. its all ova.
get a realiti check. u got a new guy.
why must u dwell on the past?
cant let him go, do you?
for goodness sake. we have been together for abt a month now.
do wat u want. say wat u want.
bcoz even u cant break us apart.
we just love each otha too much. like duhh.
n btw. we're happi.
u dun care? hahaha.
if u dun. u wont say a single thing abt us.
if ure jealous, den gd.
atleast i know, i got a great boyfren.
lastly, a tip for you.
treasure the one who loves you. pls.!
i dun wish to see u cry nimore! =)

Syg, I Love You

2008-07-09T11:49:00.001+08:00

Kpd Kamu Yg Tersyg.
.Firay. =)

Saya Cinta Kamu.
Sepenuh Hati. Sepenuh Hayat.
Akan Ku Ingat Janji2 Manis Kita Berdua.
Walaupun Byk Rintangan Yang Patut Kita Lalui,
Aku Bersyukur Dapat MelaluiNya Dgnmu.
Ku Bahgia Bersamamu. Janji, Tidak Bohong.

Drpd,
ila.bebehh.

-stop it ehk ila. ni bkn surat tau.!-

SYG!
FITE IT
FITE IT
FITE IT
FITE IT
FITE IT FOR US! =)

to 'dearest' N1 peeps

2008-07-08T21:28:00.005+08:00

before i turn bitchy, i wna say this.
dun gif lame excuses if u did stg wrong
i went to bloghop. suddenly i came by this blog.
www.natt-c0c0lalat.blogspot.com.
n yeahh. im talkin abt u. so watt.
im kinda pissed off ryte now.
im not gonna tell any lies ok.
i noe i have no right to interfere.
but HELLO! KAMARIANA is my GF.
[kama n fahmi ade conflict.SO WATT]
siallah. ade kpale otak. fikir uhh gal.
YOU were her fren since january.
ko, eqa, idayu n KAMA.
siallah. nk njoy tu tkmo bo-chui uhk gal.
nmpk kite kt esp, step slm.
lau tak ikhlas. tkmo slm larr.
uat malu ko jek kn.
n pls, blg FAHMI ko yg ko aru knal during APRIL.
aku tau lar dia tkde bodek.
tp tak perlu lari lau nmpk KAMA.
asl?? uat slh?? huhh. bgos laar lau prasan.
i got a 4 letter word for u n ur DEAREST FRENS.
F-U-C-K.
tkyahh nk susah2 kasi explanation.
aku rase kama pon taknk dgr.
wateva k.
wat for gif explanation whn ure not sincere.
fuck u guys. u guys are making me pissed off.
n btw, tkmo nk step tak tau dpn kama.
she's not STUPID!
wateva. YAYY N1.

2008-07-08T20:42:00.004+08:00

Love leads to laughter
Love leads to pain

With you by my side
I feel good times again

Never have I felt these
feelings before
You showed me the world
How could I ask for more

And although there's confusion

We'll find a solution
to keep my heart close

to you

And I know, yes I know
If you hold me, believe me
I'll never, never ever leave

And I know
There is nothing that I
would not do for you
Forever be true
And I know
Although times can be hard
We will see it through
I'm forever in love with you

Show me affection
In all different ways
Give you my heart
For the rest of my days

With you all my troubles
are left far behind
Like heaven on earth
When I look in your eyes

And although there's confusion
We'll find a solution
To keep my heart close to you

And I know, yes I know
If you hold me, believe me
I'll never, never ever leave

And I know
There is nothing that I
would not do for you
Forever be true
And I know
Although times can be hard
We will see it through
I'm forever in love with you

No need to cry
I'll be right by your side
(Right by your side)

Let's take our time
Love won't run dry
If you hold me, believe me
I'll never, never ever leave

And I know
There is nothing that I
would not do for you
Forever be true
And I know
Although times can be hard
We will see it through
I'm forever in love
And I know
There is nothing that I
would not do for you

Forever be true
And I know

Oh I know
Although times can be hard
We will see it through
I'm forever in love with you

before every probs turn sour.
i just wna dedicate this song to you!.
syg, ure my everything.
13.06.2008 was the bestest day for me.
ila syg firay. =(

Deep Down Dere Is Sorrow

2008-07-06T21:34:00.005+08:00

Sorry ppl fer nt updating fer awhile.
i was superduper busy wif work.
and i wna thnak my SYG fer sending and fetching me.
and i wna thank my SYG's mum for feeding me afta work.

Today's post is about you, syg
dere is no one else to talk abt. except fer you.
dere is loads of things i wna tell you.
but im just too shy to tell in u in person.
i dun even noe why.

Syg, i know since e past few days we've been fighting alot. n i know its my fault. i neva think about ur feelings first before i say something to you. while typing this post. my tears have been dripping. bcoz im feeling guilty. Syg, dun eva go. If u eva go, there's no meaning in my life. Its betta i end it if ure gone. Syg, i know ure sick. But pls, for the sake of our love, fight it. I will always be here if u nid me. even if u dun nid me, im always here. for you syg. no one else. haix. Today is the 6th of July. ytd i made a big mistake in hurting u again. im disappointd in myself. fer letting u down. maybe u think im feeling happy. but dats whr ure wrong. haix. i feel like fckn kill myself fer hurting u. i know i cant turn back tym. if eva i can. i would neva eva talk to you dat way. haix. syg. forgive me. pls. im begging you. i would sacrifice anything in dis world for u. even my happiness. syg, pls. i love u. haix. im not sure wthr u'll forgive my this tym round. im grateful for everything uve down fer me. haix. the sweet gentle kiss. the kiss on my forehead. the 3-step procedure when walking wif u. the hitting me. the lying on my lap. the piggy back me. the i love u on the sand. the waiting fer me fer 3 hrs outside my workplace alone. haix. syg. i appreciate everything u did fer me. n yet all i did was to hurt u. i dun deserve u do i? haix. im neva gd enuff fer u am i? haix. im a messed up gf ryte? do u tink i deserve u? haix. syg, ure my everything. i swear. without u in my life. dere's no more sunshine or wadso eva. n suddenly i feel like hitting my head on the wall. n suddenly i feel like getting high. n suddenly i feel im useless to everyone. haix.

b4 im gone again. to aiseyAIN. i miss u so much gf.
im sorry fer not spending tym wif u during our hols.
im stuck wif work.
im sorry if i neva accompany u to ur checkup's.
im sorry to not be by ur side.
im sorry.
im sorry.
im sorry.

p.s. I will always love you. till ur last counting breathe. =(

26 June 2008, Baby!

2008-06-28T13:21:00.003+08:00

plans were long made.
syg was the organizer.
*aku bini organizer* haha. dats wat he say
haha. wth!! cute kan?
well. i woke up at 9.20 i think.
i was super late coz i have not yet pack my bag.
i rushed. quickly pack my bag n get ready.
i went out ard 10.50.
i nid to mit syg at b.b at 11.30.
so yeah. quickly walk n took the train.
n guess wat. SYG WAS LATE TOO.
haha. i rch the intrchge. and he just finish bathin.
so he ask me to take 106 n dropped at Y.I.
*dia msih ble jln terkedek2 keperr*.
haha. abeh dtg. uat muke simpati.
alalalala syg dia. hahah
so we walkd towards his hs.
*dia tolak aku masok rumah keperr*
his mum and anak sdare was home.
so yahh.
his anak sdare cute keperr. hehe.
ate first at his hs.
den we proceed. it was already 1.50.
we nid to meet dem at 2. haha.
but its ok. they say they would be late too.
so we slackd at b.b platform.
*mcm bdk tkda uma gtu* hehe.
so they rch j.e at ard 2.30.
6J except for Adam Kaveri went.
everyone was mad coz he BUIH again.
aiyohh. i duno larr. kecoohh.
reachd ECP ard 4 liddat.
set the tent and all.
afta dat wan went home to take things.
aidil followed to.
while the four of us slacked and prepare things.
ard 5plus wan n aidil came back
DEN AT THIS PART WAN FARTED.
BAU GILER LAHH SIALLL.
at 7 aidil kekasih n fren came by.
not long afta that. angels came by too.
we were making alot of noise.
esp SYG with wan's guitar. haha.
at 11 angels went back home.
so left the 8 of us.
uat bising agk.
i was slpy readi.
but still can tahan. kay go-lek.
at 12plus aidil kekasih and fren went home.
they cant thon. *cian aidil*
so yeah. slack2 till 3plus.
before slping, i had dis supergastrict.
wth ryte!!
syg had to iced me. hahah.
sejok larr siall.
slack2. den slept wif syg at the tent.
woke up ard 6 plus.
den me n syg had a big fight.
then the sweetest part came.
i came back from 7-11.
he wrote on the sand.
in caps. I <3 KHARMILA.
omg! switkann. hehehe.
took a swim wif syg and aidil.
at 10 we cabots. clean up n wash up.
den went to macdonald for breakfast. haha.
den wan parted ways wif us.
soon afta me n syg parted ways wif dem.
we took 61.
THNXS AIDIL FOR MAKING US SUFFER.
AKU SUKE CARE KO LARR SIALL.
the bus ride was super damn long siall.
i went to his hs first to put the things.
den he sent me home.
but i nid to mit ezah.
to help her with AFD.
syg went home afta putting stuffs at my hs.
i guess he was superr tiredd.
pity syg larr sehk.
me n ezah slack n slack.
laugh our heart out.
i miss those moments sehk!

2008-06-23T20:34:00.003+08:00

today i went out wif dearest GFFs. Ezah n Iana, baby!
i miss dem to the core siall. n we SUPER had fun today.
thnxs guys. ILY guys loads.
actually we had job interview today.
at whr ehkk. its just for us to know lar siall.
haha. kecohh apee.
we are the only ppl making noise in dat stupid office.
hahaa. kite katekn. tak ble stop uat bising.
kwang3. so yeah. had to wait for our stupid turns.
n like today was the *bau se-dunia* day. haha.
lepas satu, satu bau peng sialll. ccb!
me n ezah got the job. but pity iana she din.
due to no spot. wtf!!
its ok. once we get our pay, we'll blanja u ok syg!.
haha. no worries k bebb. ure not forgotten!.
n we waited for Adam Kaveri to pass his hwks.
Tpkn dia PAITAU aperr!!. *nmpk sahh mat buih*.
Den we saw this group of ppl.
N1 ape mcm gini. ble ludahh sioll.
klua tak tau nk ajak. laen kali tak usah anggap kwn k.
Whateva. *roll eyes*. n jgn skali2 panggil Iana kwn if korg tergamak uat gini.
Pls ehk. stop being hypocritical larr sehk.
P.S.I MISS MY DEAREST MRHOTSTUFF!
I WNA HUG U SOO BADLY!! CAN?

Syg Kamu, Firay!

2008-06-22T21:27:00.003+08:00

i had so much fun today with syg.
syg said he wna mit me today.
so yeah, met him as usual.
i fetchd him at the usual spot.
n as usual, i was late. hehehe.
i watchd Hannah Montana.
hahaha. *mcm bdk kecik*.
so went home to slack wif him.
slack and slack. he went to slp.
haha. tido jek keje syg ku. haha
i went to do household chores.
wash dishes n cook rice. haha. *rajin kan. MCM FHM*
today syg haf kompang. so syg had to go off early.
we went out of my hs ard 1630. yupp2.
after syg went to kompang, i did my chores again.
had to iron adq's uniform. hehh.
and daddy's n mummy's work uni. hehh.
and now. OTP wif iana n ezahh.
plannin for tmr. wat tym to mit n at whr.
ouhh gosh. cant wait to work.
i need money siall. arghh.
i wan money can? pls. hehe.

syg, i miss u!
u light up my life.
i nid u soo badly.
syg. I LOVE U!

2008-06-20T12:30:00.003+08:00

went out wif syg on 19Jun2008.
town was the destination.
wan came down.
soon keys too. afta work.
waited fer her till 1830.
slack outside Taka for ard 2 hours.
haha.
so yeah. yadaayadaa.
joke ard with wan.
while syg chat with his fren.
met keys ard 1845.
outside topshop. hahaa.
i think she SUPERhungry uhk.
she bought the 300g FamousAmos Cookies.
hahaha. Kecoh per ko!.
Wan cant resist his temptation for food readi.
so we went to CAHAYA!! whhhaaattt.
i prefer PUNCAK siialll.
wateva ehkk.
ok keyyss. rmbr our deal!! hahaha.
so yeahh. afta eating.
we went to haf our puffs.
*klua pintu jek, gelap gelita*
hahaha. tpi gerek siool.
hahaha. slack and slack.
coz we dun haf a proper plan.
so yeah.
atlast keys said.
*yok, jln g p.s*
haha. ok sbrg bebb.
ku tak psl. *kay, go*
da penat jln. balek uhk.
ape lagik. bluekk!

To syg
we werent in gd terms when meeting.
we kept quiet n listen to our own music.
but in the end we make it tru the day.
whateva it is. i do love u.
no doubts abt dat.
so syg. dun eva say i dun.
im grateful to haf u.
n i'll treasure u till foreva.
i love u, syg.

p.s Thnxs 'aiseyAIN for lending ur cam. Syg Kamu! =)

im sorry!

2008-06-19T11:50:00.004+08:00

18Jun2008 realli gave me a wake up call.
ila, stop it with ur ego-ness.
its tym for u to get hurt n not FIRAY.
i was so not myself ytd. i hurt him by my remarks.
haix. why did i made dat stupid mistake.
siallah ila, FIRAY pon ade hati apee.
i know u wont forgive me. n i respect every decision u make.
he almost let me go ytd. BUT thnxs to miracle he din.
i duno wat im gona do if he were to let me go. haix!
wateve it is.i pray hard to ALLAH that he will not.

syg. b4 anything get mixed up.i did went to b.rd ytd.
i did. but afta dat we had a change of plans.
and headed to cityhall. we just want to clear our minds.
ain had some probs ytd. n i just wana be by her side.
is dat so wrong syg?
haix. u accused me of lying to u.
yesh, i was disappointed bt i cant do much ryte?
den came the not meeting u part. yadaayadaa.
den came the meeting when sch reopens.
den came the breaking part.
den came the 'ICE" part.
den came the 50bucks part. argghhhh.
i was so fucking stress. dat my migraine got worse.
haix. but im letting go of every probs ok.
i dun wna dwell on it much.

TO 'aiseyAIN:
i will do wateva it takes to make u n him happi.
i will do wateve it takes to see a smile on ur face.
i will do wateva it takes to make u not gif up on ur love towards him.
n my dear gf,
ure always in my heart n i will help u no matter wat ok.
ILY. so smile always n cherish every single thing!

my sweetest drug!

2008-06-18T13:38:00.002+08:00

i just feel like updating. so yeah. afta awhile staring the comp n doin ntg. its betta i blog dis post. so yeah. its abt SYG!

Fri the 13 is when it started.
SUPERgrateful to haf u in my life.
went alot of ups n dwns together.
n im still grateful dat u're still by my side.
Syg, ure my addiction ryte now.
without u here by my side, i duno whr else i would be.
U do make me smile. now even wider. hehh.
Syg, ure my everything. I swear!

Syg, when i look at u, i know there will be a smile on my face.
Syg, when i hug u, i know there will be warmth all ard me.
Syg, when i kiss u, i know my life would be urs.
Syg, how deep is the ocean,
how high is the sky,
how long the train track,
hoe wide is the field,
all of it cant measure up to the love im givin u.!
Syg, ure my sweetest drug, ure my addiction.
Syg, i need u so much than anione else who needs u.
& Syg, i love u so much than anione else can love u.

We both know dat we can go far.
Dun let this opportunity fly by.
bcoz we know we cnt live without each otha.
Syg. i love u.
i wan u to noe this.
without u, life is SUPERmeaningless. <3

ila sayang firay byk2. bole?

2008-06-17T22:20:00.005+08:00

i actually cant go out today.
due to goin hm late for the past three days. hehhh.
but because of syg. i still went out.
he wanted to meet me! whee. syg kamu!
i asked him to come dwn adm. switkn dia.
*sanggop tron adm stakat nk jmpe aku*.
met hm at ard 3pluss. met him at the usual spot.
as usual he's dere early. haha.
n he would always say 'lmbt, gigit tau!'. hahaha.
n i would always rushd to meet him.
but today i din haf the energy to walk as fast as i usually do.
coz i had flu. aiyohh.
i din wana stay home. coz i wna meet him.
i do miss him. soo much. hehhh.
afta had our puffs.
we went to KFC to eat.
i was SUPERstarving. hahah.
and syg was SUPERswit to treat me.
hehh. he already ate at hm.
but since i askd him to eat again.
he ordered stg to eat too. hehhh.
afta filling our stomachs.
we went to slack undr my block.
we din talked much. i duno why. maybe stg wasnt ryte.
askd him. and he said ntg.
so i din wished to drag the matter.
i keep mum. hehhh.
lie on his lap. heheh.
take pics n laugh here n dere.

met beloved ain at the bridge ard 6plus.
haha. *panjang umur dia*. hehh.
i told syg . i missed herr.
n ALHAMDULILAH. ALLAH grant my wish.
heee. =)
thought of sending syg at the MRT.
but we decide to slack wif dearest GF & the BF.
haha. at first GF & BF was so quiet n moody.
me & syg was the one making alot of noise. hehh.
was silat-in wif syg. haha.
syg piggy back me. n went exerising.
was SUPERhot n sweating.
hahha. n syg say 'u look hot'.
WTH!!. hahaha. *rimas*
n syg's babel drop. we finding it like SUPERcrazy.
haha. 2 tyms larr sehk.
but lucky found it.
*da gelap bebb. tk nmpk clearly*
hehh. den syg's babel dropped again.
but pity syg.
din manage to find the ball again. hehh.
so ard 0830 went hm.
syg went to marina to meet wan n the geng.
i sent him till the bridge there.
just din wan to let him go.
i wan him by my side always!
i love u syg!.
=)
To ezah
Haf fun at BATAM tmr!
i wish i can go. but too bad.
jgn lupe saye ok? haha.
=)

the dating scene

2008-06-17T13:35:00.005+08:00

i went to watch Kung Fu Panda with syg ytd.
i din noe dat we were gonna watch movie.
he just ask me to follow him. *ikot punye ikot, smpi Jurong Point*
the first thing he said was 'i got one motive when i come here'.
haha. wth! motive kepe syg? haha.
afta bought the tixs. we walk n walk again. hehh.
den he added, 'i got second motive when i come here'.
hahaha. gile lar syg aku nie.
wat i gotta noe is we went to eat. haha. pity him. i wna eat LJS.
he just followed. next tym we dun eat LJS k. i dun wana eat ur grilled chicken nimore. haha. promise. promise.
the movie start at 1540. after eating, went for a smoke. aiyohh. *isap rkk jek keje*
afta had our puffs. we went inside the cinema. took our seatings.
the advertisements was super long siall. hahaha. i was supercold.
lucky syg brought his hoody. syg kamu! hahaha.
waited awhile for the movie to start. haha. cuddled up beside him.
yadaa.yadaa. the movie was oklarr. i think our kiseses made the distraction!.
hehehe. i think ard 5 plus the movie ended. *ntahlarr ehk*
afta dat went to slack wif him at the nearest block.
*nearest keper. haha. punye lar jauh*
had laughs here n dere. took pics usin his hp. haha. den laugh again.
hugging and kissing. yadaa. yadaa. den at 0830 went home. promise daddy i rchd hm at ard 0930. but still rchd hm at 10. whhaaattt.
syg sent me home. sweet kankankan. hehh.
he nid his puffs when we reachd adm. so yeah. dats why i rchd hm late.
WTHH! hahaha.
but whateva it is. im glad im by ur side.

when midnight came by. had a quarrel wif syg.
n im sorry if i hurt u. i din mean it. trully!
i dun mean to drag the matters.
dat is why i hanged up just liddat.
n im sorry. trully. sincerely. i swear!.
i wna meet u. i wna hug u. so hard!
syg. i miss u. n i nid u right nw! <3

wateva shitts

2008-06-16T12:18:00.003+08:00

im not sure wthr i shld be angry. yesh. u hurt my feelings.
you did. but i did hurt ur feelings too. n yesh. i did say sorie.
not to ur face. but i noe u noe i said sorie.
my frens said dat i shldnt be angry with you. n i know they were rite.
so, i wont be mad at u or hold grudges.
my dear, we were frens. im truly sorie but feelings cant be voided.
'Sad for you, you cant differentiate between diamonds n stones'
my dear, are u implyin dat im the stone? -stone je perr.-
even stone has a value my dear.
but only diamonds are much valuable now.
im glad at least u say im the stone n not sumthing else.
im not the one who hold grudges my dear.
but sad to say.
I DO LOVE FIRAY, DAMN MUCH!

To My Dearest Firay!
Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you

Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously

at last syg, i found the song that suits my love for you!

cheer up hunns!

2008-06-14T10:05:00.002+08:00

hello syg2 ku! i've not been blogging properly. so here am i now. early in the morning. hehe. chhehh. *mane de pagi sgt. aru kol 10*.

To NUR FAIZAH!

syg msged me ytd night. due to wat dat stopid boy did.

& im soo really fucked up wif his attitude.

u noe my fucking GF truly loves u n you did dat to her.

how could you hurt her damn it!!!!!

you dun even noe how much she loves you.

even my words cant describe it!!

SYG. you truly dun deserve someone like him.

he dun nid ur sincere love.

you truly deserve someone betta.

someone who can treasure you.

even when everythings down. super down.

syg. u noe. we are here every sec, every min, every hour,

for you.! we love you to the core!

you've helped me soo much. n im grateful.

n here i am now for you.

to show how much u mean to me.

in this heart of mine.

syg. i noe dere is someone who u can rely on in future.

i noe dere is someone who truly loves you in future.

so syg DUN GIF UP!.

we are here to support you no matter what.

dun do silly things just bcoz of him.

its not worth it.

dun show to him dat ure weak.

show him dat you can manage well without him.

SYG, PLS!

i love you. n it hurts to see you in this state!.

TO FIRAY!

my dearest syg. whee.

let me share wif you what he say.

'i tknk kite berdue aje yg tau kite syg satu sama laen.

i nk org tau jgak.

jady org tk akan kacau u, tk akn kacau i.

jady org tau, kite suda mempunyai satu sama laen.

i nk pimpin tangan u dpn yg laen.

i nk peluk u dpn yg laen.

i jgk nk cium u dpn yg laen.

i nk hubungan yg biase.

bukan tersembunyi di alam kite berdua saje'

syg. if ure willing, im willing too.

as u n me said.

'i believe in u. u believe in me. together WE can'

im sorie to hurt her. i do.

i dun even noe where to put my face.

i truly cant face her.

i feel dat ive stabbed her heart so bad.

im sorie. im truly sorie. haix!

Syerzan Askd Me To Do Dis! =)

2008-06-12T08:39:00.000+08:00

1. when was the last tym u cried?-
monday afternoon perhaps?

2. have you ever faked sick?-
lyk duhh.

3. have you ever cried for a boy?-
yesh.yesh.

4. who was the last person you couldnt take your eyes off?-
woww. mulisha.

5. have you ever been drunk?-
never! sad ryte.

6. whats the furthest you've ever gone on a dare?-
not yet i suppose. hahaha. =)

7. what is your full name?-
kharmila larr sehk.

8. have you ever been in a car accident?-
nope. bicycle can?

9. how old were you when u received your first kiss?-
the first day i was born.

10. who was your first kiss?-
mummy larr sehk.

11. what is your favourite sport to play?-
hmm. netball perhaps.

12. have you ever made a prank call?-
yesh. opps.

13. is there anything you have done that you regret?-
yesh. super regret it!

14. do you believe in love at first sight?-
yesh of course.

15. do you believe in karma?-
yeshh!!

16. how would you describe yourself?-
loud. lame. cheerful. and blablabla.

17. who was your first bf/gf?-
diniy. whhhaattt

18. what is the longest crush/rshp you ever had?-
4 years?

19. what is your weakness?-
-himmm-

20. do you get along wif your family?-
hell yesh!

21. would you ever get a tattoo?-
yesh. but too bad. cant.

22. who makes you laugh without fail?
EZAH, AIN, FIRAY, AIYEESHA KEYS, WAN, GUCC, KAMA, TETEK everyone larr. sng!

23. If you could change anything abt yourself, what would it be?-
i wna haf longer legs. =)

24. what would you want to accomplish before leavin the earth?-
bring happiness to everyone!.

25. List 5 ways what LOVE is to you.-
a) him!
b) a lot of obstacles.
c) happiness
d) a lot of sacrifices!
e) love is blind, bby!

Tag 7 ppl. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them at their tagboard that they've tag!

MLS!!
=)

gayboy,bby!

2008-06-10T21:52:00.002+08:00

7May2008 was when it all it started. the high romance. the superhot moves.
okay. what the hell am i talking about? haha. some will understand.
some will not. the super loud laughter. the super lame jokes.
but i just seem to love it all. the sizzling hot fites. the tube of tears.
is always what we wna avoid. but to no avail.
problems come crashing afta one anotha. bahhhh.
but still wished upon a shooting star that fantasies would come alive.
and memories still stoppped by to say hi. and which we cant let go easily.
denigration and criticism ended up the day. and no apology was said.
people once said 'forgive & forget'. but the pain caused was super deep.
moved on to the next day. where confessions were made. super-duper touching
and that day was filled with tears. again and again. tears falls down to earth.
everyone could say. 'Life is Unfair'. But no offence. no one owns the world.
9May2008 came by super fast and school started.
indolent was the key of mind. a promise has to be kept.
although it seems dat this face of mine was swept away.
gone with the wind. lost in the sea. n died on earth. and yes. bewildered.
yet again. being denigrated. twice was enough.
positivity was the key to life. negativity was stuck in my mind.
but when all turns sour. gayboy n super GFFs were dere. pulling me tru.
msgs pleasing for the eyes. cooling down the anger flaming inside.
even millions of thank you could not verbalize how valuable friendship is. =)
and to you gayboy, even the seven wonders of the world.
cant describe what a stunner you are in my eyes.
life is super defective without you by my side.
and yes. life is inevitable of obstacles.
but together, me and you, nothing is impracticable.

07.Jun.08

2008-06-08T15:59:00.002+08:00

hello ppl!

i went out wif this ppl on sat.

wat a day, haha!

altho it was just a handful of ppl.

but i really treasure dose moments together.

i swear, not lying!

To aiseyAIN and BOYFREN!

pls dun fite anymore.

you guys are so sweet when you guys are not fighting

feel like hitting both of ur heads, u noe!

pls ok syg2 ku!

dn find fault with each other.

but find dose moment where you guys can rmbr foreva.

To Ezah.The.Effing.Bytch!

thnxs for makin my day afta all dat fites.

u are always appreciated my dear.

thnxs for holding my hand n be dere for me.

and abt ***q**.

if he is meant to be urs, he will always be.

patience is a virtue.

so my dear. dun ever give up.

im always here for you.

if you feel like giving up.

always hope for a betta future ok.

To Firay!

Thnxs for all those precious moments.

i really do treasure it.

thnxs my dear.

you help me forget abt an!

thnxs for all those advices.

thnxs for holding my hand n be dere for me.

wateva i wna say to u.

i think it shld remain in my heart.!

2008-06-04T21:48:00.003+08:00

i was actually not planning to update my bloggie.

but after reading all my GFFs blogs.

i decided to. =)

i just wna say a big THANK YOU to all of you.

for being there for me. n supporting me.

i realli am grateful for having GFFs like u guys.

Firstly, to my precious aiseyAIN,

meeting u soon k bebbs.

sorie cant meet u dis few days.

was damn busy n tired. sorie.

i'll tell you everyting. from A to Z.

PROMISE.

secondly, to EZAH the bytch,

thnxs for hugging me n calming me down.

thnxs fer all the msgs.

it really bring a smile to my face.

thank u. thank u. thank u.

thirdly, to GUCCI.

"Honeyy. don't sad sad okayy. Smile big big okayy.

Don't cryy or think bout it so much. Think about tommorow, kite enjoy!

syng kamu. Heh"

hahaha. thnxs bebb. really am lost for words.

seriously. thnks a million.

fourthly, to bro SHAHRUL,

"Ila jgn stres2. I knw hw u feel. Lau nk bebual kol aku

Tu pon lau nk. Jgn buat bende mepek. Juz tk care".

thnxs shahrul. bt i dun wna burden u with the probs im havin.

u gt ur own probs i noe. so i just wna thank u from the bottom of my heart. =)

lastly to my dear fren, FIRAY.

a long msg he sent me. haha. ok here goes.

"Close ur eyes..listen to ur heart..think nthg,bt only fer urself..

Ask urself..will u be hepi if u go bak to him?or will u be hepi being urself and all

ur frens, especially ____________ making u hepi all day long?

im jus like u..every decision u make im here,always beside u..

supporting every decision u make..u tell me wadsur decision k"

panjang kepe. but thnxs DUDE for being dere for me.

nk harapkn agk satu. tak gune. hehh.

thnx again. appreciate it lots.

any decision u make abt u n her. i'll support u anyhoo.

promise. thnxs again.

THNXS GFFs N BFFs FOR BEING DERE FOR ME.

I APPRECIATE U GUYS LOADS.

SERIOUSLY FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.

NO KIDDING.

ILY GUYS SO MUCH. =)

THNXS AGAIN.

i love 30 MAY 2008

2008-06-01T17:05:00.009+08:00

plan to go out to dinner at KTM railway station since thurs.

so yeah. meet ezah at adm stn at ard 4 i tink. ntah larr. terlupe. hehhs.

den we proceed to ysh stn to fetch iana.
gucc cant make it. so no worries. =D next tym okie?

meet aiyeesha keys at habourfront.

she was damn late sehkk. had kokoi again. whee!
ain lazy sial to go KTM. hahaha

lengit larr. ape larr. hahaha

den we just had dinner st habourfrnt coffee shop.

haha. =)

i had cockles fried rice, ain had kampong fried rice.

aiyeesha had roti john, ezah had lucky plate i think. hehh.

kama had beef steak. n we had SATAY! whee!

saw dat stoopid AIDIL & DIN. whhaattt!!

afta eatin had kokoi again!

den we took 100. to go m.s
haha. not MOS ok aidil. MARINA SQUARE.!

hehhh. =)

ngahh singing, dancing, camwhoring & bla2.

hehh. den wan came along. haha.

thanx wan for takin our picas. whee!

den at 9+ firay came too.

he just came back from johor-ness.

so yeah. soon after ezah n kama had to go off.

left me, aiseyAIN, aiyeesha keys, wan & firay.

slack2. laugh2.

smpi wan ktawe mcm aiyeesha larr sehk.

same larr. hahaha.

den at 10 aiyeesha had to leave.

sad2. left the 4 of us!.

we camwhored again. but now wif the boys. haha.

gerek larr sehk. how i wish it wouldnt end!

so yeah. went home wif ain n firay.

wan had to take bus. cian dia.

FIRAY JAKON LAR SEHK NAEK TRAIN.

FIRAY KAT TAMP ADE APE? -NORTH POINT-
HAHHHAA. KECOH APE.

KAT TANAH MERAH ADE APE? - TANAH-

HAHAHA.

KAT BISHAN ADE APE? -8 JUNCTION-

HAHAHA. WHHHAATTT!

kecohh.kecohh.

and i got lock outside of my hs. coz i gt no keys!.

bluekk!! =)

2008-05-17T17:05:00.009+08:00

firstly, 16 May 2008

finish sch at 1.

need to go detention but was too lazy to do it.

quickly went out of sch.

before gg out. clashed wif *****.

i quickly walked out sehk.

haha. takot per kakk. ehk. takdelar. hehh.

after dat, ezah tot of gg bugis.

so yeah. took 7 from interchange.

haha. we were super noisy sia inside the bus.

bukak lagu kuat2 mcm bpk kite nye bus gituk ehk.

rchd bugis. walk here walk dey.

suddenly started to hear our stomaches grumble.

ate at LJS. byk lawak lar pat sane.

bdk2 madrashah lar. ape larr.

naseb tak tersembur sahk aku. hehh.

den we had kokoi. rolling larr.

hahaha. den we feel like gg to M.S

meet asad. saw ishraq( i think dats the spelling lar)

had our drinks. n dats whr the fun begins.

hahaha.

read ezah blog to know more.

prangai satu2 pehh sial. hahaha.

secondly,17 May 2008

had our flag day today.

need to assemble at b.b mrt dere.

alot of ppl sia. so hot summore.

we went to outram to do the flag day larr.

yg lain nk g town.

tak glamour sahk g town uat flag day, malu!!

firay mcm badot aper. letak sticker pat idong dia.

mmg sajak jadi clown. hehhh.

rchd outram bought kokoi. NEXT MENTHOL CHILL.

siallah. isap nilu bebb.

bulu roma ble naek kepe.

da uat keje tu smua. g mkn pat SGH.

haha. jauh kepe.

i & ezah had nasi lemak.

that aunty give us this big piece of chicken sia.

nk bahase kn pe kite lapar. nb cb.

tak abes larr sehk.

@ 1.10 cabot to gif back the tin.

so yeah. was effing tired n lazy sia.

hehh. pastu home sweet home.

but for me, went to KFC to meet ain.

dia kebuloh. cian dia. hehe.

thirdly, gmbr mepek!

ntah tgu ape ehk

aku & dia. hehh.

Kamariana larr sehk

Thanxs ehk kama! haha.

Sempat!

Muke burok sial!

Posing per ko?

that was our day, =)